Hi,
I am writing an open letter to you. I need to get it off of my chest. I am sure that half of the things you know is not correct so I need to just say what it is I have to say and then I will finally be over it.
I am not sure what has been told to you, but I will tell the truth because I am sure that much of it is not true.
I met him back in june. Online. it was not something i expected to develop so quickly, and unfortunately it did. We would have small conversations at first but then then things spiraled out of control. our feelings grew deep and strong. I repeatedly questioned him and he told me no every single time. i began to have thoughts when I noticed that he would only call at certain times, but the person that I am I always try to give people the benefit of the doubt. I realize now i should never have done that.
i know you are thinking that this is all about a booty call, and it is not. Do you really think that someone would really travel for a piece of ass when there is so much available right thre. No that is stupid. Obviously there was a connection.
When i received your request the first time, I was absolutely heartbroken. I had met someone i had poured my life out to, and he lied to me. in the worst way. And especially after I gave him multiple chances to come clean. It was what it was though, and as i felt hurt, I knew that i had to go on. And believe me I tried. I tried to just push away so many times, but he was in pursuit. This is not about the pursuit honey, because if that were the case, it would have been over a very long time ago. This was about two people who had very strong feelingd for each other, and did not know what the next step should be.
He told me multiple times that there was so much at stake with me, and he was not sure if it was a risk he was willing to take. He told me he loved you, but you were not the kind of love he was searching for. He said that i gave him a breath of frsh air, and although I am sure that after a while, my air would go stale, there is no woman that can deny, hearing those words are like music. So I let it go on. Only under the premise that eventually we would be together.
Of course, i knew someone would get hurt in this whole process, you, me, and definitely him. And in essence all three of us. Especially because no matter which one of us has to go the other will have to deal with his grief of losing the other woman. I was not sure if i could do that. Everyday I would get a phone call about the arguments or the accusations, and everyday i asked him if we should just wait. We may have met at the wrong time, and it will come back to us eventually. And everyday he reached out to me, imore intense than the last.
I decided that it was best that we not contact each other and did not see hime when i went down there, but that was not in his plans, and he was heartbroken when i did not respond to any calls. I actually went to the point to just block all of the numbers he would normally call me from so i would not even know that he called. The next day that was all I heard about. I abandoned him, once again. i made a decision about our relationship without consulting him. i am always tryingto do what is best without taking consideration of his feelings. Do not get me wrong, I was upset that i did not see him, but i felt it was the best thing to do. I said he should really try to work it out with you, and just be honest about the situation. if there was nothing wrong, why try to fix it with someone else. His kids are down there, and I am up here. How are we going to make this work?
One word....Hope
When he came up here (or as he said he did) he decided that he would not contact me. I am not sure if it was payback, but whatever. I sent him an email stating that he should not contact me again. That i cannot keep going trough this. And although i was willing to wait, i really did not think i could. I was the one going to bed alone eveyr night, not him, and it really was not fair. I wrote him a letter that night and explained my feeling to him. He never got the letter before he called me one morning last week. And honestly, i did not mean to pick up the phone. We had a brief conversation that turned into a much longer one. And ended with the fact that once again, I was making decisions for everyone without consulting him. We did not leave things on a bad note, but it also was not a good note.
That was why he visited here on Friday. i know he told you i went down there, but really, do you hnestly believe that? So he stayed here, and I said over and over again he should call you. He refused. And i know it was not because he just did not want to, it was because he was scared. Scared of everything hitting the fan as it did. I apologize, not because of what happened but because I did not truly understand his true feelings for me. And that was what caused this. If I would have understood how deeply he felt, he would have never came up here to show me how much he really loved me.
And even after all of that i still am trying to let go. Not because i want to but because i need to. I gave him that letter I wrote him when he visited and I am sure that he has said that the letter was the reason we needed to meet. Not at all. I read him the letter 2 days beforehand. I am trying to let go for my own sanity and for yours. And that is what i told him. I cannot keep going through this emotional rollercoaster and continue to push away to be pulled back and not understand the full extent of what is going on.
In the end, you can have him. I love him, but I cannot fight any longer. I would be willing to fight for him, but I cannot continue to see him get hurt. And althought I wish this was easy, I know that it is not easy for him at all. As i said before, i do not know if we will be together in the end. I do know that he has alot of changing to do before we can be together, because i will not allow the things that have happened with you, happen with me. And only time will tell if that is a sacrifice he is willing to truly make.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
I Had a Breakdown
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 12/23/08
So I technically should be processing payments for payroll tomorrow, but once again I am up writing. I think I need to get a journal. Lately I am always in the writing mood.
So we were on the show tonight and I told my sister that I had a complete breakdown at work last week. And she was upset because it was not with her :) She is after all my bestest friend. I told her I could not because she would just laugh at me. But I really did. I had a bad breakdown at work. Sobbing and everything. Here is what it was about.
Some of you know that life has been chaotic for me the past few months. My love life has been crazy, home life is chaotic, and work is nuts (year end). So I was talking to a friend about some things, and I told her that if I was destined to be by myself for the rest of my days then so be it, but no one really wants that. Now if I have been single for this long, why the rush now. Am I getting old, do I feel my biological clock ticking, what exactly is it. I have never ever been the type of person to beg someone to be with me. Once you say that it is time to let go, you will never hear from me again. Don't beleive me, ask. Anyone will tell you that if we have begun speaking again, they reach out not me. I think I got that way because I used to see my mom beg for people to stay, and I vowed I would never do that. As I stated in a previous blog, I am 100% satisified with myself and will never lower myself to the standard of that. If you want to leave, by all means go. I have also been a very independent woman. I had a child extremely young, and still finished school, went to college, and am now completing my MBA. All of this I did by myself. Well I cannot say that honestly, my mom helped alot in the early years. But for the past ten years, it has always been me and my boys. That is what life has centered around. Doing what I need to to ensure that they have the best life possible. Making sure that by seeing everything I have done, they know that they need to get it done right the first time, so they are not playing catch up on the rest of their lives.
That was when I realized why I feel the way I feel. My life has essentially been centered around me and boys, as it should be. And my oldest is 16 now. He will be gone in 2 years to go start his life, and it will be just me and man man. Everyone knows that man man is a mommy's boy and he ain't leaving when he turns 18. I realized that I am feeling like this because the only man that has been steady in my life will be leaving soon. Am I trying to find someone to take his place, No, no one can take his place, but what will my house be like without him? I literally brokedown at my desk sobbing. And not because I have not found someone, but more because my baby is leaving soon, and I do not know how to deal with it.
Most people know that Nathanael and I have never had the best relationship. I like to say that we have more of a brother sister relationship instead of a mother son relationship. We have been to counseling and for the last few years we have been learning how to try to cope with each other until he leaves. It should not be like that and I always hope that one day he will appreciate the fact that I truly love him unconditionally. Because of this tumultuous relationship, I never realized how much I would truly miss him when he is gone. I mean of course we won't fight as often and I won't worry about the things I see everyday, but really he is my firstborn. He is my Bubs, my Poobers, my Nate (I finally can call him that). He and I have been through the worst of times together. There were days when we just did not know what would be for dinner that night, and we found a way through. He has seen the worst of me and he has seen the best of me. He has been with me when I have completely lost my mind. There are so many experiences we share. He has been a part of my life for half of the time I have been on this earth. And I realized exactly how much I will truly miss him.
I wish things could have turned out better for the both of us. I wish that I could have provided him a better life than what he has had so far. I wish that I could completely clear his mind of all of the bad things I have ever said to him. I wish I could clear his mind of all the nonsense he has seen. I wish that he would realize his full potential. I wish he could see how much I appreciate him. I wish he could understand that everything I do is for him. I wish he would have a better understanding of himself and know what he wants out of life. I wish he would make the right choices. I wish he would not understimate the decisions he has made. I wish he could just see that he does not want to go through the same things I did. And most importantly, I wish he could fully understand how much I love, appreciate and cherish him.
Nate I love you so much more than you will ever know. So am I looking for his replacement, no of course not. It is just that my love life has made me realize other things in life also. Once my kids are gone, will I be by myself. No I do not think so. I know that I have a destiny, I just need to make the right choices to get there. Am I on the right path. I believe so, but I know that sometimes what we have planned is not always what HE has planned. And if I get off that path, he will find a way to pick me up out of the thorns and place me back on that path as HE has so many times before. But in the meantime, I will work on my relationship with my son, and finding a way to make the most of the two years I have left with him here with me permanently.
So I technically should be processing payments for payroll tomorrow, but once again I am up writing. I think I need to get a journal. Lately I am always in the writing mood.
So we were on the show tonight and I told my sister that I had a complete breakdown at work last week. And she was upset because it was not with her :) She is after all my bestest friend. I told her I could not because she would just laugh at me. But I really did. I had a bad breakdown at work. Sobbing and everything. Here is what it was about.
Some of you know that life has been chaotic for me the past few months. My love life has been crazy, home life is chaotic, and work is nuts (year end). So I was talking to a friend about some things, and I told her that if I was destined to be by myself for the rest of my days then so be it, but no one really wants that. Now if I have been single for this long, why the rush now. Am I getting old, do I feel my biological clock ticking, what exactly is it. I have never ever been the type of person to beg someone to be with me. Once you say that it is time to let go, you will never hear from me again. Don't beleive me, ask. Anyone will tell you that if we have begun speaking again, they reach out not me. I think I got that way because I used to see my mom beg for people to stay, and I vowed I would never do that. As I stated in a previous blog, I am 100% satisified with myself and will never lower myself to the standard of that. If you want to leave, by all means go. I have also been a very independent woman. I had a child extremely young, and still finished school, went to college, and am now completing my MBA. All of this I did by myself. Well I cannot say that honestly, my mom helped alot in the early years. But for the past ten years, it has always been me and my boys. That is what life has centered around. Doing what I need to to ensure that they have the best life possible. Making sure that by seeing everything I have done, they know that they need to get it done right the first time, so they are not playing catch up on the rest of their lives.
That was when I realized why I feel the way I feel. My life has essentially been centered around me and boys, as it should be. And my oldest is 16 now. He will be gone in 2 years to go start his life, and it will be just me and man man. Everyone knows that man man is a mommy's boy and he ain't leaving when he turns 18. I realized that I am feeling like this because the only man that has been steady in my life will be leaving soon. Am I trying to find someone to take his place, No, no one can take his place, but what will my house be like without him? I literally brokedown at my desk sobbing. And not because I have not found someone, but more because my baby is leaving soon, and I do not know how to deal with it.
Most people know that Nathanael and I have never had the best relationship. I like to say that we have more of a brother sister relationship instead of a mother son relationship. We have been to counseling and for the last few years we have been learning how to try to cope with each other until he leaves. It should not be like that and I always hope that one day he will appreciate the fact that I truly love him unconditionally. Because of this tumultuous relationship, I never realized how much I would truly miss him when he is gone. I mean of course we won't fight as often and I won't worry about the things I see everyday, but really he is my firstborn. He is my Bubs, my Poobers, my Nate (I finally can call him that). He and I have been through the worst of times together. There were days when we just did not know what would be for dinner that night, and we found a way through. He has seen the worst of me and he has seen the best of me. He has been with me when I have completely lost my mind. There are so many experiences we share. He has been a part of my life for half of the time I have been on this earth. And I realized exactly how much I will truly miss him.
I wish things could have turned out better for the both of us. I wish that I could have provided him a better life than what he has had so far. I wish that I could completely clear his mind of all of the bad things I have ever said to him. I wish I could clear his mind of all the nonsense he has seen. I wish that he would realize his full potential. I wish he could see how much I appreciate him. I wish he could understand that everything I do is for him. I wish he would have a better understanding of himself and know what he wants out of life. I wish he would make the right choices. I wish he would not understimate the decisions he has made. I wish he could just see that he does not want to go through the same things I did. And most importantly, I wish he could fully understand how much I love, appreciate and cherish him.
Nate I love you so much more than you will ever know. So am I looking for his replacement, no of course not. It is just that my love life has made me realize other things in life also. Once my kids are gone, will I be by myself. No I do not think so. I know that I have a destiny, I just need to make the right choices to get there. Am I on the right path. I believe so, but I know that sometimes what we have planned is not always what HE has planned. And if I get off that path, he will find a way to pick me up out of the thorns and place me back on that path as HE has so many times before. But in the meantime, I will work on my relationship with my son, and finding a way to make the most of the two years I have left with him here with me permanently.
What the Hell Were We Thinking?
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 12/22/08
So for those of you that do not know, my sister Nichole and I have our own show on blogtv.com. The name of the show is called Whateva, and that is exactly what we talk about Whateva the Hell we feel like. Many times people have asked us, how the hell we got this whole thing started. So I decided to write about it.
When I was out of work in February, Nichole and I used to just sit around and veg out, doing absolutely nothing. We used to watch all of these stupid tv shows, like Flavor of Love, and I Love NY, and Celebrity Fit Club. JunkTV as it should be called.
Anyways, we would just sit around talking trash about the shows wondering how all of these people really ended up on TV? And why it is that when there is one black chick in a reality show, she has to try to act like she can kick everyone's ass. Stupid people. We thought about putting something on youtube, but honestly did not have the patience. That is where Fred came in.
Fred put an ad on Craigslist about doing a web show on BlogTV.com. i told Nichole about it, and of course she was like...Yeah let's try it out. I contacted Fred and the rest is history. We did our first show in June and it has been on ever since. We talk about some crazy stuff. Kids, Love, Sex, Politics, News, TV, like I said before whateva we feel like.
Nichole is the tell it like it is and I am the more reserved innocent one (She hates it when I say that). She tells everyone that I have them all fooled (the one eyebrow rises). We love doing our show. Our infamous top tens, that are quite funny most of the time, we have to bring back our Gotcha segment. That is when we talk about people who should have never ever left the house looking the way they do. Half the time Nichole says I should be on the gotcha segment. Politics was easy during the election, but now there is nothing great, oh except we have two exceptional people who want Hillary's senate seat. And of course we have an avon and Passion Party segment. Those usually are some of the highest rated.....want a candy cane? LOL
Our viewers have started to compare us to the R rated version of Oprah and Gail. I like to think of us as more along the lines of The View. Well except with a lot of cursing from Nichole (LOL) and some topics they would probably never discuss on the view. So we need some ideas. Check out our show, and let us know what you think. If you have any suggestions, let me know. You can either send me a message here on myspace, or you can hit me up at hope@trutalktv.info, Nichole at nichole@trutalktv.info, It would be great to see you all there on Monday's from 7:30-10:30 at www.blogtv.com/people/trutalktv Support our show, let us know what you think. We have a call in, if you want to speak with us directly, and a chat room. The lovely and talented Vicki pulls us by the reins sometimes, but we all know who is in charge :).
And yes, Fred is DA MAN!!!!!. See you all tomorrow night.
So for those of you that do not know, my sister Nichole and I have our own show on blogtv.com. The name of the show is called Whateva, and that is exactly what we talk about Whateva the Hell we feel like. Many times people have asked us, how the hell we got this whole thing started. So I decided to write about it.
When I was out of work in February, Nichole and I used to just sit around and veg out, doing absolutely nothing. We used to watch all of these stupid tv shows, like Flavor of Love, and I Love NY, and Celebrity Fit Club. JunkTV as it should be called.
Anyways, we would just sit around talking trash about the shows wondering how all of these people really ended up on TV? And why it is that when there is one black chick in a reality show, she has to try to act like she can kick everyone's ass. Stupid people. We thought about putting something on youtube, but honestly did not have the patience. That is where Fred came in.
Fred put an ad on Craigslist about doing a web show on BlogTV.com. i told Nichole about it, and of course she was like...Yeah let's try it out. I contacted Fred and the rest is history. We did our first show in June and it has been on ever since. We talk about some crazy stuff. Kids, Love, Sex, Politics, News, TV, like I said before whateva we feel like.
Nichole is the tell it like it is and I am the more reserved innocent one (She hates it when I say that). She tells everyone that I have them all fooled (the one eyebrow rises). We love doing our show. Our infamous top tens, that are quite funny most of the time, we have to bring back our Gotcha segment. That is when we talk about people who should have never ever left the house looking the way they do. Half the time Nichole says I should be on the gotcha segment. Politics was easy during the election, but now there is nothing great, oh except we have two exceptional people who want Hillary's senate seat. And of course we have an avon and Passion Party segment. Those usually are some of the highest rated.....want a candy cane? LOL
Our viewers have started to compare us to the R rated version of Oprah and Gail. I like to think of us as more along the lines of The View. Well except with a lot of cursing from Nichole (LOL) and some topics they would probably never discuss on the view. So we need some ideas. Check out our show, and let us know what you think. If you have any suggestions, let me know. You can either send me a message here on myspace, or you can hit me up at hope@trutalktv.info, Nichole at nichole@trutalktv.info, It would be great to see you all there on Monday's from 7:30-10:30 at www.blogtv.com/people/trutalktv Support our show, let us know what you think. We have a call in, if you want to speak with us directly, and a chat room. The lovely and talented Vicki pulls us by the reins sometimes, but we all know who is in charge :).
And yes, Fred is DA MAN!!!!!. See you all tomorrow night.
It is Late and I am writing
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 12/21/08
The way I feel is indescribable to me. I am at a loss. I feel joy and I feel pain, but most importantly I know that the best of me never goes away.
I am up writing late because I cannot go to sleep and when this happens I just feel the need to write. There is so much happening this week, and so much that has happened over the past week. I have come to realize how important it is to take care of me, and do what I need to in order to ensure my own happiness. No matter the cost. In the end isn't that what it is all about....me. People would say I am selfish and I know I am, but I am the only one that matters when you get down to it.
There is so much to do. And my world is changing on a daily basis. The ups and the downs. Sometimes when you start to go down, it is hard to go back up. But people change that outlook. There is always something to fight for. Life, love, happiness, it all comes down to sacrifices, and what sacrifices you will make to know that you are content with the outcome.
I have learned alot this week. Giving up is easy, letting go is not. When the world as you know it changes, it is almost always for the better. You never realize how much you affect someone's life until they show you. I will always be in control even in those times when I do not think so. I also know that regardless of what I think, my flaws are not what I think they are.The more I continue to push away, the more I realize that God has other things in plan for me. Although I may no know them yet, I just need to follow it through. For me.
I cried, overwhelmed with emotion, pleasure and pain. Will I know when it is okay to give in? I don't, but I pray that day comes soon. Soon enough for me to know that there will be no more questions, no more fear, and no more pain.
I know that we will all survive regardless, I have always done just that. And in the end, my happiness is worth it.
The way I feel is indescribable to me. I am at a loss. I feel joy and I feel pain, but most importantly I know that the best of me never goes away.
I am up writing late because I cannot go to sleep and when this happens I just feel the need to write. There is so much happening this week, and so much that has happened over the past week. I have come to realize how important it is to take care of me, and do what I need to in order to ensure my own happiness. No matter the cost. In the end isn't that what it is all about....me. People would say I am selfish and I know I am, but I am the only one that matters when you get down to it.
There is so much to do. And my world is changing on a daily basis. The ups and the downs. Sometimes when you start to go down, it is hard to go back up. But people change that outlook. There is always something to fight for. Life, love, happiness, it all comes down to sacrifices, and what sacrifices you will make to know that you are content with the outcome.
I have learned alot this week. Giving up is easy, letting go is not. When the world as you know it changes, it is almost always for the better. You never realize how much you affect someone's life until they show you. I will always be in control even in those times when I do not think so. I also know that regardless of what I think, my flaws are not what I think they are.The more I continue to push away, the more I realize that God has other things in plan for me. Although I may no know them yet, I just need to follow it through. For me.
I cried, overwhelmed with emotion, pleasure and pain. Will I know when it is okay to give in? I don't, but I pray that day comes soon. Soon enough for me to know that there will be no more questions, no more fear, and no more pain.
I know that we will all survive regardless, I have always done just that. And in the end, my happiness is worth it.
The Past Few Weeks
Moved from Myspace. Original post 12/18/08
As the topic says I am in the writing mood tonight. I just came back from dinner tonight with a bunch of colleagues and it was absolutely wonderful. We went to one of the executive's houses at my job, and it was a great way to top off a sad day.
Life and love has gotten the best of me the past couple of weeks. I have been on a emotional roller coaster lately, but hopefully things are starting to level off. I was in a situation I was never really comfortable with and it got out of control this last week. I have a tendency to push people away and for good reasons. They commit the sins of lying stealing and cheating. I give my all to some things and some people just do not realize that this is life we are playing with. This is not a fun and games to see who wins in the end. Although it would be nice if it was, because then we would not be so affected by these experiences. Life has always been about the challenges we face and the bonds that cannot so easily be broken. Although if it is bad for you, it will be broken. Am I hurt, of course, but life moves on as it always does. I am not hurt by the choices we both made, I am more hurt by the fact that we know what the end result will be because we set it up in the first place. We go through these experiences to teach us a lesson. It teaches us a lesson about you and me. It teaches us that with every heartbreak, GOD had something waiting for us in the wings. It teaches us that even when we have people that absolutely hate us, its okay because you know someone is thinking about you. It teaches us that even though things may not ever work out the way you planned, it was destiny for it to happen that way. But most importantly it teaches us that life will always move on. You cannot just stop, you still have to get up the next morning.
This experience has also taught me something about other people's relationships. It has taught me that people will do what they need to do to be comfortable. They may be content but never happy. They may feel loved but never in love. They may have control but never be in control. And although the right decision was made for everyone, no one will ever be happy. History repeats itself and if it happened before me, it will happen after me. Which is why I let go. If it happened to them, what in Gods earth would allow me to think that it would not happen to me. So where do we go from here. I feel like I have lost my best friend, but I know that in the end it was all worth it. I have my sanity back. I have my control back. I have my emotions back. But most importantly, Hope is back. I know I have so much to offer. I am a great woman. I know my possibilities are limitless. I know my future is preserved. I know I can accomplish anything I put my mind to.
You said.....I am ....air. I am.....light. To be with me is to know Joy. No one has ever brought out the emotion the way have. I thank you for those words. And I know it is possible.
As the topic says I am in the writing mood tonight. I just came back from dinner tonight with a bunch of colleagues and it was absolutely wonderful. We went to one of the executive's houses at my job, and it was a great way to top off a sad day.
Life and love has gotten the best of me the past couple of weeks. I have been on a emotional roller coaster lately, but hopefully things are starting to level off. I was in a situation I was never really comfortable with and it got out of control this last week. I have a tendency to push people away and for good reasons. They commit the sins of lying stealing and cheating. I give my all to some things and some people just do not realize that this is life we are playing with. This is not a fun and games to see who wins in the end. Although it would be nice if it was, because then we would not be so affected by these experiences. Life has always been about the challenges we face and the bonds that cannot so easily be broken. Although if it is bad for you, it will be broken. Am I hurt, of course, but life moves on as it always does. I am not hurt by the choices we both made, I am more hurt by the fact that we know what the end result will be because we set it up in the first place. We go through these experiences to teach us a lesson. It teaches us a lesson about you and me. It teaches us that with every heartbreak, GOD had something waiting for us in the wings. It teaches us that even when we have people that absolutely hate us, its okay because you know someone is thinking about you. It teaches us that even though things may not ever work out the way you planned, it was destiny for it to happen that way. But most importantly it teaches us that life will always move on. You cannot just stop, you still have to get up the next morning.
This experience has also taught me something about other people's relationships. It has taught me that people will do what they need to do to be comfortable. They may be content but never happy. They may feel loved but never in love. They may have control but never be in control. And although the right decision was made for everyone, no one will ever be happy. History repeats itself and if it happened before me, it will happen after me. Which is why I let go. If it happened to them, what in Gods earth would allow me to think that it would not happen to me. So where do we go from here. I feel like I have lost my best friend, but I know that in the end it was all worth it. I have my sanity back. I have my control back. I have my emotions back. But most importantly, Hope is back. I know I have so much to offer. I am a great woman. I know my possibilities are limitless. I know my future is preserved. I know I can accomplish anything I put my mind to.
You said.....I am ....air. I am.....light. To be with me is to know Joy. No one has ever brought out the emotion the way have. I thank you for those words. And I know it is possible.
Merry Christmas
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 12/17/08
So I was on the phone with my friend Donald tonight. We looked up a bunch of Christmas music. Thanks, appreciate the time and effort you put in to helping me create my Music list and helping me narrow it down. For those of you that see my page you will see I like all types of artists, even Barbara and Bette, those are my BYTCHES.
Next month the list will feature show tunes....ANYWAY while I was on the phone, he was trying to figure out what to get me for XMAS and although, I love to receive Xmas gifts, I like practical things, because that is what I need, practical things. I do not want anything crazy or something you Think I may like, or just because I am always jolly get me Xmas shirts that light up LOL Donald.... Here is my Xmas list for this year....
10. Some work clothes. I am kind of sick and tired of wearing my stuff and it always falling down.My butt looks saggy and i look a lot bigger than I am because my clothes are a size too big for me
9. Jewelry...A nice necklace or earrings are good. Practical though because again I am a practical girl. I wil wear the same hoops forever. In fact the hoops I had were too small and it was him that suggest I get a slightly larger pair to go with my new hair....I have Christmas earrings in now :)
8. A maid ....well for those of you that know me, you know why
7. A gift certificate to a nice massage spa. Damn I really need one of those
6. A new pair of funky shoes with a nice purse.....Love my shoes
5. Can someone please write my thesis for me??? Please please please. That would be a wonderful Christmas gift.
4. Send me to a class for people that are addicted to downloading music. Honestly I have a 30 gig Zune and about 20 gigs are filled with so much music. I have stuff on there I have never listened to, but I gotta have it. I need help!!!
3. A volunteer to take down all of my Christmas stuff and pack it after the New Year is another great present
2. If I could just have a man come over here and beat my kids up a few times a day so they would listen, that would be great. I would smack them, but damn did you see how big my son is. I would prefer someone who is like Andre the Giant, and that way you don't even need to smack him, you just look at him and it's all good.
1. I need someone to make a bunch of phone calls for me and tell a whole bunch of people that I really cannot talk to them anymore. I do not know why that is such a hard thing for me to do, but I don't like people to be hurt,.So you can just call them and tell them that I am in the hospital because I had a nervous breakdown due to all of the stress in my life and I have mulitple personalities, and right now Sybil has pronounced herself to the workd, so you do not think it is a good idea for them to call me anymore that would be great. AHEM...Shaketa you would really be able to pull this one off for me :) You would be convincing. Oh wait some of those people are here on my friends so maybe I should not have said that on my blog...LOL.
Anyway I really hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas this year and a blessed New Years. Check out my blog from Jan 07. The New Years is the time for New Life, and Refresh. Remove those Black Clouds from your head and let the sunchine in. Get rid of the junk and trade it in for Gold. Lookover your past year, and undertsand where you went right and wrong, and learn from EVERYTHING. Not just your mistakes. Appreciate the fact that you are still here to celebrate a new year and set goals for yourself. It does not have to be anything big, take small jusmps before you leap. Keep that list with you and check them off as you go. Find a new job, a new love, a new interest, a new book, a new friend, a new song, a new place, but most of all find peace withing yourself. Be happy with who you are and remember that God made you to be exactly who you are. There are no mistakes. We may have a destiny but we also have choice, it is the one thing that separates us from everything else in this world. Make the right choices for you. Make the right choices for your family. Do what you wish when and how you want. Make that leap of faith and know that GOD will carry you all of the way.I want to send this out to my friends and all of the people I love.....
Nate, Hopefully this will be the year of change for you. I pray for you every single night, and although you constantly think I am nagging, I only try to look out for you. I know what you are capable of, and I want you to live life to the fullest, but be practical also. KNOW what you are worth, and strive for it...only you can determine your destiny....Remember we all have choices
Man Man, Mommy's Boy...nuff said
Mom, you hardly are ever on here, so I will tell you I Love you and you need to get those damn devil eyebrows fixed. This year will be soo great for you, I am so excited, and you will see the change you will go through and love life all over again
Nichole...You are my sister, my ready to go bitch, a bitch, but most importantly you are my best friend in the whole entire world. I love you and we will continue to blow up with WHATEVA....Haters can hate all they want
Kristin, You are also my sister and my wanna be white, black, puerto rican, or whateve the whether calls fo MAMI. Although we are not as tight as we should be I love you and you know it...And guess what!!! We are going to the XMAS party together LMAO
Lea...My baby sister, I love you always have and always will...I wish we both had time to be closer to each other, and learn and grow together. There is so much I want to share with you, so much we still have to catch up on. 20 years is too long honey, and I think this needs to be the year that we make it happen. We need to make time and work on us. I love you.
Keitha.....you said it best....GOD is preparing us for the best there ever was. We may know what true love is, but we will experience that wholeheartedly when we are ready, willing, and able, but most importantly when HE knows that we are ready. We must be patient.
Carm, my girl.....you have helped me maintain my sanity over these few months I have known you. I know our friendship will continute to grow stronger. Keep your head up, and regardless of what anyone says or thinks....You are where you need to be...just because. If you were able to be here for one reason only, it was so you could meet me and make sure I did not go fucking crazy.
Mr. Sam..you are leaving here in a week, moving to a different country and damn I am gonna miss you so much. We are hundreds of miles apart but you are still one of the greatest friends I could ever have. You have shown me what it was like to be appreciated and in your own words "A friend is someone who knows everything about you and still loves you" Thanks for giving me the time to grow and appreciate you. And although things may not always go the way we expect them to, you know the impact you have had on me and the boys. When you think of me, think of us watching Grizzly Man and cracking up over this guys misfortune...Damn we were mean :) I will miss you, but I know you have made your decision based on your best interests and needs. You will do well, and don't forget to write... :(
I know I forgot a bunch of ya'll I will do another blog tomorrow with some more new year's shout outs.....
So I was on the phone with my friend Donald tonight. We looked up a bunch of Christmas music. Thanks, appreciate the time and effort you put in to helping me create my Music list and helping me narrow it down. For those of you that see my page you will see I like all types of artists, even Barbara and Bette, those are my BYTCHES.
Next month the list will feature show tunes....ANYWAY while I was on the phone, he was trying to figure out what to get me for XMAS and although, I love to receive Xmas gifts, I like practical things, because that is what I need, practical things. I do not want anything crazy or something you Think I may like, or just because I am always jolly get me Xmas shirts that light up LOL Donald.... Here is my Xmas list for this year....
10. Some work clothes. I am kind of sick and tired of wearing my stuff and it always falling down.My butt looks saggy and i look a lot bigger than I am because my clothes are a size too big for me
9. Jewelry...A nice necklace or earrings are good. Practical though because again I am a practical girl. I wil wear the same hoops forever. In fact the hoops I had were too small and it was him that suggest I get a slightly larger pair to go with my new hair....I have Christmas earrings in now :)
8. A maid ....well for those of you that know me, you know why
7. A gift certificate to a nice massage spa. Damn I really need one of those
6. A new pair of funky shoes with a nice purse.....Love my shoes
5. Can someone please write my thesis for me??? Please please please. That would be a wonderful Christmas gift.
4. Send me to a class for people that are addicted to downloading music. Honestly I have a 30 gig Zune and about 20 gigs are filled with so much music. I have stuff on there I have never listened to, but I gotta have it. I need help!!!
3. A volunteer to take down all of my Christmas stuff and pack it after the New Year is another great present
2. If I could just have a man come over here and beat my kids up a few times a day so they would listen, that would be great. I would smack them, but damn did you see how big my son is. I would prefer someone who is like Andre the Giant, and that way you don't even need to smack him, you just look at him and it's all good.
1. I need someone to make a bunch of phone calls for me and tell a whole bunch of people that I really cannot talk to them anymore. I do not know why that is such a hard thing for me to do, but I don't like people to be hurt,.So you can just call them and tell them that I am in the hospital because I had a nervous breakdown due to all of the stress in my life and I have mulitple personalities, and right now Sybil has pronounced herself to the workd, so you do not think it is a good idea for them to call me anymore that would be great. AHEM...Shaketa you would really be able to pull this one off for me :) You would be convincing. Oh wait some of those people are here on my friends so maybe I should not have said that on my blog...LOL.
Anyway I really hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas this year and a blessed New Years. Check out my blog from Jan 07. The New Years is the time for New Life, and Refresh. Remove those Black Clouds from your head and let the sunchine in. Get rid of the junk and trade it in for Gold. Lookover your past year, and undertsand where you went right and wrong, and learn from EVERYTHING. Not just your mistakes. Appreciate the fact that you are still here to celebrate a new year and set goals for yourself. It does not have to be anything big, take small jusmps before you leap. Keep that list with you and check them off as you go. Find a new job, a new love, a new interest, a new book, a new friend, a new song, a new place, but most of all find peace withing yourself. Be happy with who you are and remember that God made you to be exactly who you are. There are no mistakes. We may have a destiny but we also have choice, it is the one thing that separates us from everything else in this world. Make the right choices for you. Make the right choices for your family. Do what you wish when and how you want. Make that leap of faith and know that GOD will carry you all of the way.I want to send this out to my friends and all of the people I love.....
Nate, Hopefully this will be the year of change for you. I pray for you every single night, and although you constantly think I am nagging, I only try to look out for you. I know what you are capable of, and I want you to live life to the fullest, but be practical also. KNOW what you are worth, and strive for it...only you can determine your destiny....Remember we all have choices
Man Man, Mommy's Boy...nuff said
Mom, you hardly are ever on here, so I will tell you I Love you and you need to get those damn devil eyebrows fixed. This year will be soo great for you, I am so excited, and you will see the change you will go through and love life all over again
Nichole...You are my sister, my ready to go bitch, a bitch, but most importantly you are my best friend in the whole entire world. I love you and we will continue to blow up with WHATEVA....Haters can hate all they want
Kristin, You are also my sister and my wanna be white, black, puerto rican, or whateve the whether calls fo MAMI. Although we are not as tight as we should be I love you and you know it...And guess what!!! We are going to the XMAS party together LMAO
Lea...My baby sister, I love you always have and always will...I wish we both had time to be closer to each other, and learn and grow together. There is so much I want to share with you, so much we still have to catch up on. 20 years is too long honey, and I think this needs to be the year that we make it happen. We need to make time and work on us. I love you.
Keitha.....you said it best....GOD is preparing us for the best there ever was. We may know what true love is, but we will experience that wholeheartedly when we are ready, willing, and able, but most importantly when HE knows that we are ready. We must be patient.
Carm, my girl.....you have helped me maintain my sanity over these few months I have known you. I know our friendship will continute to grow stronger. Keep your head up, and regardless of what anyone says or thinks....You are where you need to be...just because. If you were able to be here for one reason only, it was so you could meet me and make sure I did not go fucking crazy.
Mr. Sam..you are leaving here in a week, moving to a different country and damn I am gonna miss you so much. We are hundreds of miles apart but you are still one of the greatest friends I could ever have. You have shown me what it was like to be appreciated and in your own words "A friend is someone who knows everything about you and still loves you" Thanks for giving me the time to grow and appreciate you. And although things may not always go the way we expect them to, you know the impact you have had on me and the boys. When you think of me, think of us watching Grizzly Man and cracking up over this guys misfortune...Damn we were mean :) I will miss you, but I know you have made your decision based on your best interests and needs. You will do well, and don't forget to write... :(
I know I forgot a bunch of ya'll I will do another blog tomorrow with some more new year's shout outs.....
Top Tens are BAAACCCKKK
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 12/11/08
Ok I know I have not done a top ten in a while, but I am going to try to be a bit more consistent with my Top Ten again. So here we go.....This is my Top Ten for the week:On our show this week we talked about Xmas Carols and there are few Xmas songs I absolutely hate....Here they are
10. Backdoor Santa - Bon Jovi.....Okay I do not even need to listen to this song, the title is bad enough. Santa ain't even supposed to be going into Mrs. Claus's back door, he is supposed to be coming down my damn CHIMNEY!
9. Baby It's Cold Outside - Okay so if this is not the perfect description of date rape, I do not know what is. And they have Barry Manilow singing it to make everyone think it is okay that he is drugging this woan up for a quick piece of ass. Don't belive me READ THE LYRICS. http://www.stlyrics.com/lyrics/elf/babyitscoldoutside.htm
8. Feliz Navidad - How many songs do you know that has at the most 15 TOTAL words in it and still be as long as American Pie and be a hit???? Please someone explain this to me.
7. Dominick the Donkey - I used to think this was funny before because my pastor's name is Dominick, but I mean for real, now I hate it.The Hee Haw and everything. And as an FYI, the donkey would never be able to survive in the damn North Pole
6. Please Daddy (Don't get drunk this christmas) - Need I say more?
5. Santa Claus Goes Straight to the Ghetto - Did Santa always go to the ghetto last and by some miracle, Santa went to the gheto first? I mean c'mon you have a lot of dissapointed kids out there who heard this song and really thought Santa would deliver the Super Nintendo to their houses, and got a brokedown Atari instead. And FYI, Santa is not Black.
4. Christmas Shoes - Now amazingly I actually love this song, and my son loves this song, but we hear enough about make a wish and other foundations throughout the Christmas season. We alsohave to hear about...on a daily basis....about a boy who not only cannot afford to buy his mom a pair of shoes but she is dying too....Goodness I hate crying everytime this damn song comes on
3. Any Christmas song by the Chipmunks - I just don't like them. They remind me of nails on a chalkboard.2. White Christmas - Michael Bolton....Don't you think that everytime Bing Crosby hears this in heaven he sobs loudly
2. Santa Baby - Madonna...She really is the last person that should ever sing a Christmas Song...Please make it STOP!!!
2. Grandam Got Run Over By a Reindeer - Okay there are some songs that we all have grown up listening to and it is a catchy son, but has anyone ever really listened to the lyrics of this song? This poor guys grandmother got runover by a reindeer, died, and he is singing an upbeat tune about it. http://www.allchristmaslyrics.com/grandma_got_run_over_by_a_reindeer_lyrics.htm1.
I want a Hippopatamus for Christmas - Ok for those of you that watch my show you know why I hate this freaking song....This girl sounds like a posessed Shirley Temple. However some people love it. We even had someone call into the show nd sing it to us. Check it out here.... http://www.blogtv.com/Shows/441034/b2XtZ2ZFae7uZ2VGZX&pos=ancr
You will notice there are more than ten......I hate more than ten. Next week, I will do my favorite songs!
Ok I know I have not done a top ten in a while, but I am going to try to be a bit more consistent with my Top Ten again. So here we go.....This is my Top Ten for the week:On our show this week we talked about Xmas Carols and there are few Xmas songs I absolutely hate....Here they are
10. Backdoor Santa - Bon Jovi.....Okay I do not even need to listen to this song, the title is bad enough. Santa ain't even supposed to be going into Mrs. Claus's back door, he is supposed to be coming down my damn CHIMNEY!
9. Baby It's Cold Outside - Okay so if this is not the perfect description of date rape, I do not know what is. And they have Barry Manilow singing it to make everyone think it is okay that he is drugging this woan up for a quick piece of ass. Don't belive me READ THE LYRICS. http://www.stlyrics.com/lyrics/elf/babyitscoldoutside.htm
8. Feliz Navidad - How many songs do you know that has at the most 15 TOTAL words in it and still be as long as American Pie and be a hit???? Please someone explain this to me.
7. Dominick the Donkey - I used to think this was funny before because my pastor's name is Dominick, but I mean for real, now I hate it.The Hee Haw and everything. And as an FYI, the donkey would never be able to survive in the damn North Pole
6. Please Daddy (Don't get drunk this christmas) - Need I say more?
5. Santa Claus Goes Straight to the Ghetto - Did Santa always go to the ghetto last and by some miracle, Santa went to the gheto first? I mean c'mon you have a lot of dissapointed kids out there who heard this song and really thought Santa would deliver the Super Nintendo to their houses, and got a brokedown Atari instead. And FYI, Santa is not Black.
4. Christmas Shoes - Now amazingly I actually love this song, and my son loves this song, but we hear enough about make a wish and other foundations throughout the Christmas season. We alsohave to hear about...on a daily basis....about a boy who not only cannot afford to buy his mom a pair of shoes but she is dying too....Goodness I hate crying everytime this damn song comes on
3. Any Christmas song by the Chipmunks - I just don't like them. They remind me of nails on a chalkboard.2. White Christmas - Michael Bolton....Don't you think that everytime Bing Crosby hears this in heaven he sobs loudly
2. Santa Baby - Madonna...She really is the last person that should ever sing a Christmas Song...Please make it STOP!!!
2. Grandam Got Run Over By a Reindeer - Okay there are some songs that we all have grown up listening to and it is a catchy son, but has anyone ever really listened to the lyrics of this song? This poor guys grandmother got runover by a reindeer, died, and he is singing an upbeat tune about it. http://www.allchristmaslyrics.com/grandma_got_run_over_by_a_reindeer_lyrics.htm1.
I want a Hippopatamus for Christmas - Ok for those of you that watch my show you know why I hate this freaking song....This girl sounds like a posessed Shirley Temple. However some people love it. We even had someone call into the show nd sing it to us. Check it out here.... http://www.blogtv.com/Shows/441034/b2XtZ2ZFae7uZ2VGZX&pos=ancr
You will notice there are more than ten......I hate more than ten. Next week, I will do my favorite songs!
Thoughts on my mind
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 4/9/08
Hi Everyone,
You know every once in a while I like to browse through some people’s pages, and the stuff I see can be absolutely mind blowing. For instance. You know I am 31 years old at the moment. And most of the people whose pages I browse through are people I went to high school with. Some of them were my very good friends. I say WERE with a purpose.
I do not understand why people put pictures of themselves on there page with there middle fingers up saying FUCC YOU BITCHES. I mean c’mon, are we still in high school? Same thing with the status’s that say things like "You don’t like me bitches, kiss my azz" or "You Wanna Be Me" I mean I think it is ridiculous.
When are people going to grow up and realize that we are not in Kansas anymore. It is time to really start life. Get a freaking job. Stop thinking about what people think about you and stop thinking that people really want to be you, because chances are that you are sitting at home with a 6.00 an hour job, and no one really wants to be like you, except you. I mean especially because you think that myspace is the place to tell the world that they want to be like you.
Do you honestly think that people care. Do you honestly think that you are the flyest person in the world? Do you honestly think that people care that you said Fucc them? Do you honestly think that you are still 15 and are able to start the same nonsense you did in high school? Even if you could do you homestly think that someone would tell you "Oh yes, I really do want to be like you, and I am so jealous" It is time to GROW UP people.
Get off your lazy ass, go get a real job. Please don’t think because you make more than $10 an hour, you have a real job. Go to freaking school. My girls Keitha and Dar are doing it, shit I did it, and am now completing my MBA (yes I have to give myself props) we all struggle.
When did you decide that you were not worth accomplishing your dream? When did you decide that it was okay to livee off of the system for the rest of your life? When did you decide it was okay to raise your kids to learn to accept mediocrity? When did you decide that it was okay to stay in the ghetto? When did you decide that it was okay to get drunk every night? You are an alcoholic and it shows. When did you decide that is was okay to get high every freaking night? WHEN DID YOU DECIDE THAT YOU WERE JUST ANOTHER BLACK MALE OR FEMALE THAT CAN FAIL IN THIS SOCIETY?
Ok so I have ranted on about a few things here. Maybe tommorrow it will be something else. Ah yes, my next post, will be about how angry I am about Dead beat Daddies and how women are raising our next generation of young men. Maybe it is a good thing :)
Hi Everyone,
You know every once in a while I like to browse through some people’s pages, and the stuff I see can be absolutely mind blowing. For instance. You know I am 31 years old at the moment. And most of the people whose pages I browse through are people I went to high school with. Some of them were my very good friends. I say WERE with a purpose.
I do not understand why people put pictures of themselves on there page with there middle fingers up saying FUCC YOU BITCHES. I mean c’mon, are we still in high school? Same thing with the status’s that say things like "You don’t like me bitches, kiss my azz" or "You Wanna Be Me" I mean I think it is ridiculous.
When are people going to grow up and realize that we are not in Kansas anymore. It is time to really start life. Get a freaking job. Stop thinking about what people think about you and stop thinking that people really want to be you, because chances are that you are sitting at home with a 6.00 an hour job, and no one really wants to be like you, except you. I mean especially because you think that myspace is the place to tell the world that they want to be like you.
Do you honestly think that people care. Do you honestly think that you are the flyest person in the world? Do you honestly think that people care that you said Fucc them? Do you honestly think that you are still 15 and are able to start the same nonsense you did in high school? Even if you could do you homestly think that someone would tell you "Oh yes, I really do want to be like you, and I am so jealous" It is time to GROW UP people.
Get off your lazy ass, go get a real job. Please don’t think because you make more than $10 an hour, you have a real job. Go to freaking school. My girls Keitha and Dar are doing it, shit I did it, and am now completing my MBA (yes I have to give myself props) we all struggle.
When did you decide that you were not worth accomplishing your dream? When did you decide that it was okay to livee off of the system for the rest of your life? When did you decide it was okay to raise your kids to learn to accept mediocrity? When did you decide that it was okay to stay in the ghetto? When did you decide that it was okay to get drunk every night? You are an alcoholic and it shows. When did you decide that is was okay to get high every freaking night? WHEN DID YOU DECIDE THAT YOU WERE JUST ANOTHER BLACK MALE OR FEMALE THAT CAN FAIL IN THIS SOCIETY?
Ok so I have ranted on about a few things here. Maybe tommorrow it will be something else. Ah yes, my next post, will be about how angry I am about Dead beat Daddies and how women are raising our next generation of young men. Maybe it is a good thing :)
My Birthday
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 4/4/08
Ok, so those of you that have been reading my blog for a while, you may remeber that I made a list of things I wanted to do before I hit 40. I think it is time to knock some of these things out and replace them with new ones. Here was the list from last year.
So as far as my goals for my 30th year.
1. I am trying to lose 100 lbs. Please for anyone who has suggestions or wants to go to the YMCA with me. Let me know. I will tell you that the hardest thing is finding the time to do so. I know I am a healthy fat girl, I just don't want to settle for that. I want to be a healthy skinny girl.
UPDATE: I had gastric bypass surgery on February 1st, really as a last resort. I have lost a total of 51 pounds. That means I am 1/2 way to my goal I set last year on my birthday. I will keep you updated.
2. I really want to try to build a more trusting relationship with my son. He is wonderful and capable of so much. I just know if he would trust and listen to me he can be that much better.
UPDATE: Well not so much a trusting relationship, but we have definitely gotten much better. Maybe it is the maturity. I feel like now though I trust him more than I ever have.
3. I want to try to forgive and allow my family to forgiuve me for the things we have done/said to each other. I have always felt like the black sheep of the family and don't want to feel like I am not wanted anymore.
4. I want to get to know my baby sister a bit more. We met up after years of not knowing each other, and I really want to be that older sis she looks up to. I don't want her to feel that the only family she has is the one who raised her. I am here for you to.
UPDATE: I think we both have gotten closer, but this is definitely a relationship that needs a lot of work. I love her though and you know it Lea!!!!
5. I want to get a job in HR. Although the job I am in is close, it is not quite what I want.
6. I wat to get over this emotionally draining relationship. It has been hard, but day by day it becomes better.
UPDATE: Oh my goodness. I am over it! This is one thing I can cross off of my list. Don't get me wrong, I will love Toyin FOREVER, but what he says and does, just does not bother me. I can go weeks without talking to him. Gotta find something new to put here.
7. I want to travel overseas. I have a passport and have never been out of the country except Jamaica.... I really want to go to Europe or even Japan!
UPDATE: WHEW I am going to BUDAPEST, HUNGARY this summer. I am so so so excited. The flight has been booked, got my luggae set the other day and I am ready to GO!
8. I want to get rid of half the junk in my house. Lord know how many useless things I have in my house that I don't need.
9. I want my Yaris! I have a pic of it in my cube and I am determined to get one this year.
10. I want to go do something adventurous that I have never done before. Something no one will ever believe that I would do like bungee jump, or mountain climbing.......any suggestions
Okay so now that that is over, it is time to do some replacing.
Replace 1
I am going to try to grow my hair out completely. I vow to go a year without cutting it drastically (only a trim). People that know me, know that when my hair starts to get to my shoulders, I will just randomly cut it off. Not this time, I am going to keep it going.
Replace 6
I want to find someone special. That relationship really did drain me ad I was just never ready to be with someone. So now I am going to make myself available. Any suitors out there?
Replace 7
Not really a replacement, but I really do want to still go to Japan. Let me see if I can do that before 40?
Any other ideas I should add. And thanks everyone for the birthday wishes. i would go out this weekend, but I have school. You can tell I have gotten older, because when I was in school before, I still would have went out to Smoothies or the Waterfront anyway. Only the old timers remember what that was. Have a great day and feel free to comment.
Ok, so those of you that have been reading my blog for a while, you may remeber that I made a list of things I wanted to do before I hit 40. I think it is time to knock some of these things out and replace them with new ones. Here was the list from last year.
So as far as my goals for my 30th year.
1. I am trying to lose 100 lbs. Please for anyone who has suggestions or wants to go to the YMCA with me. Let me know. I will tell you that the hardest thing is finding the time to do so. I know I am a healthy fat girl, I just don't want to settle for that. I want to be a healthy skinny girl.
UPDATE: I had gastric bypass surgery on February 1st, really as a last resort. I have lost a total of 51 pounds. That means I am 1/2 way to my goal I set last year on my birthday. I will keep you updated.
2. I really want to try to build a more trusting relationship with my son. He is wonderful and capable of so much. I just know if he would trust and listen to me he can be that much better.
UPDATE: Well not so much a trusting relationship, but we have definitely gotten much better. Maybe it is the maturity. I feel like now though I trust him more than I ever have.
3. I want to try to forgive and allow my family to forgiuve me for the things we have done/said to each other. I have always felt like the black sheep of the family and don't want to feel like I am not wanted anymore.
4. I want to get to know my baby sister a bit more. We met up after years of not knowing each other, and I really want to be that older sis she looks up to. I don't want her to feel that the only family she has is the one who raised her. I am here for you to.
UPDATE: I think we both have gotten closer, but this is definitely a relationship that needs a lot of work. I love her though and you know it Lea!!!!
5. I want to get a job in HR. Although the job I am in is close, it is not quite what I want.
6. I wat to get over this emotionally draining relationship. It has been hard, but day by day it becomes better.
UPDATE: Oh my goodness. I am over it! This is one thing I can cross off of my list. Don't get me wrong, I will love Toyin FOREVER, but what he says and does, just does not bother me. I can go weeks without talking to him. Gotta find something new to put here.
7. I want to travel overseas. I have a passport and have never been out of the country except Jamaica.... I really want to go to Europe or even Japan!
UPDATE: WHEW I am going to BUDAPEST, HUNGARY this summer. I am so so so excited. The flight has been booked, got my luggae set the other day and I am ready to GO!
8. I want to get rid of half the junk in my house. Lord know how many useless things I have in my house that I don't need.
9. I want my Yaris! I have a pic of it in my cube and I am determined to get one this year.
10. I want to go do something adventurous that I have never done before. Something no one will ever believe that I would do like bungee jump, or mountain climbing.......any suggestions
Okay so now that that is over, it is time to do some replacing.
Replace 1
I am going to try to grow my hair out completely. I vow to go a year without cutting it drastically (only a trim). People that know me, know that when my hair starts to get to my shoulders, I will just randomly cut it off. Not this time, I am going to keep it going.
Replace 6
I want to find someone special. That relationship really did drain me ad I was just never ready to be with someone. So now I am going to make myself available. Any suitors out there?
Replace 7
Not really a replacement, but I really do want to still go to Japan. Let me see if I can do that before 40?
Any other ideas I should add. And thanks everyone for the birthday wishes. i would go out this weekend, but I have school. You can tell I have gotten older, because when I was in school before, I still would have went out to Smoothies or the Waterfront anyway. Only the old timers remember what that was. Have a great day and feel free to comment.
What's Up With people These Days?
Moved from Myspace. Original post 3/31/08
Hey Everyone. I know I said that I would post soon. I even gave a huge list of topics that I would post on but you know what I have decided that I just have so many things going on in my life that I just have a couple of questions for all of my myspace friends. People are crazy, and so am I, but here goes my questions
Why do people call you friend when they really aren’t?
Why do friends deceive you and then expect you to not be mad?
Why are pregnant people so bitchy?
Why do we work? To spend our money on the basic necessities in order to be broke 2 days later?
Why do guys stand us up? Don’t they know that it really hurst our feelings?
Why s it that the one person you really like and get along with does not have those same feelings?
Do white guys really like black girls, or are they just black curious?
Why do men who are married think they can still claim you as there own?
Why do men who are married cheat?
What the hell happened to chivalry?
Is a phone call really that difficult?
Is every family dysfunctional?
Is every teenage boy a pian in the freaking ass?
Will I ever find the right man for me?
How come if the sex was so good this weekend, he won’t come back for 4 weeks?
When will I be able to eat bread?
Why can’t I just keep my hair one color?
Why when you tell your frineds that there man is no good, they don’t listen?
When they find out, why do they come to you crying about it?
Why does it seem like the only person that truly cares about you is you?
When will HEROES be back on?
When will my next class begin so this one can end?
Why is it that my nephew plays the freaking video games better than I can?
Why am I scared of the dark?
Are there really vampires?
What will it be like to be black in Budapest?
Do you feel like you are also trying to catch up on life?
Do we all really need companionship?
If you really don’t have my best interests in mind, why don’t you just leave me alone?
When will my pilot friend call me?
WHat do you think my ideal weight should be?
Why is it that the men who are the worst in bed are the biggest braggers?
Why do we fall for the braggers, and miss out on the quiet ones?
Why does everyone think Dwight and I are destined to be together? Can’t we just be best friends?
Why did God create the flu?
Okay that is it for now. Anyone want to tackle the answers?
Hey Everyone. I know I said that I would post soon. I even gave a huge list of topics that I would post on but you know what I have decided that I just have so many things going on in my life that I just have a couple of questions for all of my myspace friends. People are crazy, and so am I, but here goes my questions
Why do people call you friend when they really aren’t?
Why do friends deceive you and then expect you to not be mad?
Why are pregnant people so bitchy?
Why do we work? To spend our money on the basic necessities in order to be broke 2 days later?
Why do guys stand us up? Don’t they know that it really hurst our feelings?
Why s it that the one person you really like and get along with does not have those same feelings?
Do white guys really like black girls, or are they just black curious?
Why do men who are married think they can still claim you as there own?
Why do men who are married cheat?
What the hell happened to chivalry?
Is a phone call really that difficult?
Is every family dysfunctional?
Is every teenage boy a pian in the freaking ass?
Will I ever find the right man for me?
How come if the sex was so good this weekend, he won’t come back for 4 weeks?
When will I be able to eat bread?
Why can’t I just keep my hair one color?
Why when you tell your frineds that there man is no good, they don’t listen?
When they find out, why do they come to you crying about it?
Why does it seem like the only person that truly cares about you is you?
When will HEROES be back on?
When will my next class begin so this one can end?
Why is it that my nephew plays the freaking video games better than I can?
Why am I scared of the dark?
Are there really vampires?
What will it be like to be black in Budapest?
Do you feel like you are also trying to catch up on life?
Do we all really need companionship?
If you really don’t have my best interests in mind, why don’t you just leave me alone?
When will my pilot friend call me?
WHat do you think my ideal weight should be?
Why is it that the men who are the worst in bed are the biggest braggers?
Why do we fall for the braggers, and miss out on the quiet ones?
Why does everyone think Dwight and I are destined to be together? Can’t we just be best friends?
Why did God create the flu?
Okay that is it for now. Anyone want to tackle the answers?
Thoughts
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 3/24/08
Hey guys! I know it has been a while since I have written ablog. Life has been a bit hectic since then. Let me stop, I was just being lazy. I was actually thinking about doing another top ten but I am not sure on the subject. So many things have happened in the past month I think I will let you choose the subject, and I can do my top ten on on of those. So here is the list....
Top Ten Reasons why your friends are not really your friends
Top Ten Reasons why companionship is important
Top Ten Reasons why Dwight is my bestest friend (I kow many of you wonder)
Top Ten Reasons why mothers are the greatest people in the world
Top Ten Reasons to Quit your job
Top Ten Reasons to Punch your Co-Worker
Top Ten Reasons I chose to get my surgery
Top Ten Reason I love Myspace.
Hey guys! I know it has been a while since I have written ablog. Life has been a bit hectic since then. Let me stop, I was just being lazy. I was actually thinking about doing another top ten but I am not sure on the subject. So many things have happened in the past month I think I will let you choose the subject, and I can do my top ten on on of those. So here is the list....
Top Ten Reasons why your friends are not really your friends
Top Ten Reasons why companionship is important
Top Ten Reasons why Dwight is my bestest friend (I kow many of you wonder)
Top Ten Reasons why mothers are the greatest people in the world
Top Ten Reasons to Quit your job
Top Ten Reasons to Punch your Co-Worker
Top Ten Reasons I chose to get my surgery
Top Ten Reason I love Myspace.
Top Ten Foods
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 1/23/08
Okay so for those of you that do not know, I will be having gastric bypass surgery on February 12th. I am excited and nervous about it. I can only drin shakes that are like slim fast for the next few weeks, and I a dying to eat something. So I figure that because I cannot enjoy the foods I really want to eat right now, maybe you all can. so here it is my top ten Favorite Foods:
10. Shepards Pie
1 lb. ground beef1 can sweet corn1 medium onion, diced8 medium potatoes2 c. shredded sharp cheddar cheese
Boil potatoes, mash and season to taste with milk and butter.
Brown ground beef and onion with salt and pepper. When cooked, add corn. Let simmer until heated through.
In 13x9 pan place meat and vegetable mixture in bottom of pan. Cover with mashed potatoes and sprinkle cheese on top.
Place in oven on BROIL until cheese is bubbly or light brown.
9. Creamed Chipped Beef Sauce over mashed Potatoes.
1/4 cup butter or margarine
1/4 cup all-purpose flour
2 cups milk
2 (2 ounce) packages thinly sliced dried beef
4 slices bread, toasted and halved
In a microwave-safe bowl, heat butter on high for 45 seconds or until melted. Stir in flour until smooth. Gradually stir in milk. Microwave, uncovered, on high for 3-4 minutes or until thickened, stirring every minute. Stir in beef; cook on high for 1 minute or until heated through. Serve on mashed potatoes.
8. Chicken Parmesean
Do I hear Olive Garden
7. Spaghetti
Well if you do not know how to make this you are crazy
6. Turkey Dinner
Our typical Turkey Dinner consists of the following
-Turkey, Mashed Potatoes, Stuffing, Corn, Collard Greens, Fried Cabbage, Canned Yams, Gravy, Biscuit
5. Meatloaf with Mashed Potatoes
I did cheat and have some last night
4. Country Fried steak with Rice and Gravy
I actually put my sister onto this one. Simply fry cube steak just like you would chicken
3. Fried Chicken, Rice and Corn
The Black Mans Meal
2. Fettucinni Alfredo with Chicken
Oh My God I am freaking straving
1. Chicken Broccolli, Rice and Cheese Casserole.
Okay probably the worst thing you can eat but I can definitely have some right now
Okay so for those of you that do not know, I will be having gastric bypass surgery on February 12th. I am excited and nervous about it. I can only drin shakes that are like slim fast for the next few weeks, and I a dying to eat something. So I figure that because I cannot enjoy the foods I really want to eat right now, maybe you all can. so here it is my top ten Favorite Foods:
10. Shepards Pie
1 lb. ground beef1 can sweet corn1 medium onion, diced8 medium potatoes2 c. shredded sharp cheddar cheese
Boil potatoes, mash and season to taste with milk and butter.
Brown ground beef and onion with salt and pepper. When cooked, add corn. Let simmer until heated through.
In 13x9 pan place meat and vegetable mixture in bottom of pan. Cover with mashed potatoes and sprinkle cheese on top.
Place in oven on BROIL until cheese is bubbly or light brown.
9. Creamed Chipped Beef Sauce over mashed Potatoes.
1/4 cup butter or margarine
1/4 cup all-purpose flour
2 cups milk
2 (2 ounce) packages thinly sliced dried beef
4 slices bread, toasted and halved
In a microwave-safe bowl, heat butter on high for 45 seconds or until melted. Stir in flour until smooth. Gradually stir in milk. Microwave, uncovered, on high for 3-4 minutes or until thickened, stirring every minute. Stir in beef; cook on high for 1 minute or until heated through. Serve on mashed potatoes.
8. Chicken Parmesean
Do I hear Olive Garden
7. Spaghetti
Well if you do not know how to make this you are crazy
6. Turkey Dinner
Our typical Turkey Dinner consists of the following
-Turkey, Mashed Potatoes, Stuffing, Corn, Collard Greens, Fried Cabbage, Canned Yams, Gravy, Biscuit
5. Meatloaf with Mashed Potatoes
I did cheat and have some last night
4. Country Fried steak with Rice and Gravy
I actually put my sister onto this one. Simply fry cube steak just like you would chicken
3. Fried Chicken, Rice and Corn
The Black Mans Meal
2. Fettucinni Alfredo with Chicken
Oh My God I am freaking straving
1. Chicken Broccolli, Rice and Cheese Casserole.
Okay probably the worst thing you can eat but I can definitely have some right now
Top Ten Books
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 12/28/07
I know it has been a while since I wrote, but you know it has been crazy around here with year end. So those of you that really know me, know that I love to read books. I will read anything I can get my hands on. I wish I could instill this value into my children, but they do not want to hear it. So for those of you who are readers like me, I am going to do my top ten favorite books. Now some of these may be a series of books. Just remember that the books I list here are the ones I got through in about 2 days. If you don't like to read maybe you should try. It will really allow you to live life in somebody else's shoes.
1. Roots (Alex Haley) - I am actually just now finishing up this one. I have never seen this movie believe it or not. It actually came out the year that I was born and I always here my mom talking about how she watched it on T.V. when she was pregnant with me. The whole first half of the novel was about Kunta. I was so inspiored by it, I am going to try to trace back my roots on my mom and dad's side. If anyone has the dvd, let me know so I can borrow it.
2. The Left Behind Series (Jerry Jenkins, Tim LaHaye)- These books are filled with action, romance, edge of you seat drama. All of this and it is about the bible. The Left Behind Series is a fictional story about the Rapture and the years after. These were books that i would stay up all night to finish. The worst part is that it was a 12 part series. The first four books were released in a year. Every other book after that was release maybe every 9 months. So I would get through and book in one day and have to wait 9 months for the next. Honestly though these are the most life changing books I have ever read.
3. A Time To Kill (John Grisham) - This was the very first John Grisham book I read. And it was another one of those that I got through in about a day. Many of you have probably seen the movie but it does no justice for the book. The book was a masterpiece from the first page to the last. An example was that at the end of the trial in the movie Matthew M does his closing statement and says "Imagine if that girl was white". Well in the book, he really doesn't have a great closing and believes he has just lost the case. It is in the jury deliberations that one of the jurors makes that statement, and you are just blown away.
4. Loves Music, Loves to Dance (Mary Higgins Clark) - I really love all of her novels, but this was the very first one I read. She is great because the female is always the heroin. And the female is not always some sort of detective. Clark writes very well and byt the time you figured out whodunit, you are struck by the fact that the heroin pulled all of the information from a few clues.
5. Vampire Chronicles (Anne Rice) - I used to read these in my bus taking days, and I loved them. My favorite is Queen of the Damned. This book, again, is nothing like the movie. As a matter of fact I was trying to figure out what in the movie was from the book, except for the fact that Lestat was a rock star. I mean NOTHING is similar, The book explores the beginning of vampires and how how Akasha came to be. My second fav is The Tale of the Body Thief. Another wonderful book, that deals with Lestat in human form.
6. Death from Child Abuse.... and No One Heard (Eve Krupinski) - This book is one of the most profounding stories I have ever read. It deals with child abuse and matreatment from a first person perspective. I cried all night for Ursula, and for every other child out there who has gone through what she did.
7. Blow Fly (Patricia Cornwell) - Just like Clark, I like Cornwells novels for the female heroin. Kay is a medical examiner who solves crimes. Blow Fly is just one of her many books that i have enjoyed.
8. Sweet Valley High (Francine Pascal) - These are from my middle school days. C'mon now you all have to remember the Sweet Valley Twins Elizabeth and Jessica
9. The Green Mile (Stephen King) - Okay I confess, I did not really read this book. I had it on cd, and listened to it. But again, this is another great example of how the book is much better than the movie. Then again, I do not think that you would be able to fit all of that information into a movie.
10. Chicken Soup for the Soul (Jack Canfield and Mark Hansen) - Have you ever read these. Goodness thay are just awe inspiring stories and essays that are motivational. There are over 105 titles, so no matter what your situation is.... One of these will suit you.
I know it has been a while since I wrote, but you know it has been crazy around here with year end. So those of you that really know me, know that I love to read books. I will read anything I can get my hands on. I wish I could instill this value into my children, but they do not want to hear it. So for those of you who are readers like me, I am going to do my top ten favorite books. Now some of these may be a series of books. Just remember that the books I list here are the ones I got through in about 2 days. If you don't like to read maybe you should try. It will really allow you to live life in somebody else's shoes.
1. Roots (Alex Haley) - I am actually just now finishing up this one. I have never seen this movie believe it or not. It actually came out the year that I was born and I always here my mom talking about how she watched it on T.V. when she was pregnant with me. The whole first half of the novel was about Kunta. I was so inspiored by it, I am going to try to trace back my roots on my mom and dad's side. If anyone has the dvd, let me know so I can borrow it.
2. The Left Behind Series (Jerry Jenkins, Tim LaHaye)- These books are filled with action, romance, edge of you seat drama. All of this and it is about the bible. The Left Behind Series is a fictional story about the Rapture and the years after. These were books that i would stay up all night to finish. The worst part is that it was a 12 part series. The first four books were released in a year. Every other book after that was release maybe every 9 months. So I would get through and book in one day and have to wait 9 months for the next. Honestly though these are the most life changing books I have ever read.
3. A Time To Kill (John Grisham) - This was the very first John Grisham book I read. And it was another one of those that I got through in about a day. Many of you have probably seen the movie but it does no justice for the book. The book was a masterpiece from the first page to the last. An example was that at the end of the trial in the movie Matthew M does his closing statement and says "Imagine if that girl was white". Well in the book, he really doesn't have a great closing and believes he has just lost the case. It is in the jury deliberations that one of the jurors makes that statement, and you are just blown away.
4. Loves Music, Loves to Dance (Mary Higgins Clark) - I really love all of her novels, but this was the very first one I read. She is great because the female is always the heroin. And the female is not always some sort of detective. Clark writes very well and byt the time you figured out whodunit, you are struck by the fact that the heroin pulled all of the information from a few clues.
5. Vampire Chronicles (Anne Rice) - I used to read these in my bus taking days, and I loved them. My favorite is Queen of the Damned. This book, again, is nothing like the movie. As a matter of fact I was trying to figure out what in the movie was from the book, except for the fact that Lestat was a rock star. I mean NOTHING is similar, The book explores the beginning of vampires and how how Akasha came to be. My second fav is The Tale of the Body Thief. Another wonderful book, that deals with Lestat in human form.
6. Death from Child Abuse.... and No One Heard (Eve Krupinski) - This book is one of the most profounding stories I have ever read. It deals with child abuse and matreatment from a first person perspective. I cried all night for Ursula, and for every other child out there who has gone through what she did.
7. Blow Fly (Patricia Cornwell) - Just like Clark, I like Cornwells novels for the female heroin. Kay is a medical examiner who solves crimes. Blow Fly is just one of her many books that i have enjoyed.
8. Sweet Valley High (Francine Pascal) - These are from my middle school days. C'mon now you all have to remember the Sweet Valley Twins Elizabeth and Jessica
9. The Green Mile (Stephen King) - Okay I confess, I did not really read this book. I had it on cd, and listened to it. But again, this is another great example of how the book is much better than the movie. Then again, I do not think that you would be able to fit all of that information into a movie.
10. Chicken Soup for the Soul (Jack Canfield and Mark Hansen) - Have you ever read these. Goodness thay are just awe inspiring stories and essays that are motivational. There are over 105 titles, so no matter what your situation is.... One of these will suit you.
Top Ten Reasons I want the week to end
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 11/5/07
It's going to be a rough week
1. Because I need to finish writing my final and it will eventually be over.
2. I have tons of accounting homework to do and again I want it to be over.
3. My secret friend says he will be back next week and I cannot wait.
4. We don't get paid this week and I needs me some damn money. So I need it to hurry up to next week.
5. It will be three weks since I have spoken to Toyin. You know they say iit only takes 21 days to get mentally unaddicted to something. Does that include men?
6. Because we are one week closer to Thanksgiving :)
7. The quicker we get thru the winter, the warmer it will eventually get.
8. I will stop seeing those stupid reminders about 'Set your clock back". Can I ask why the hell anyone thinks it is a good thing when we get the extra hour of freaking sleep on the weekend. Now I would be really excited if we set them back on like a Monday!
9. As much laundry as I have to do I should be done by the end of the week. Then I will feel like I just went SHOPPING!
10. BECAUSE THE LANSINGBURGH KNOGHTS ARE GOING TO WIN THE CLASS A SECTION II STATE PLAYOFFS THIS WEEK, AND I CAN'T WAIT ANY LONGER!
It's going to be a rough week
1. Because I need to finish writing my final and it will eventually be over.
2. I have tons of accounting homework to do and again I want it to be over.
3. My secret friend says he will be back next week and I cannot wait.
4. We don't get paid this week and I needs me some damn money. So I need it to hurry up to next week.
5. It will be three weks since I have spoken to Toyin. You know they say iit only takes 21 days to get mentally unaddicted to something. Does that include men?
6. Because we are one week closer to Thanksgiving :)
7. The quicker we get thru the winter, the warmer it will eventually get.
8. I will stop seeing those stupid reminders about 'Set your clock back". Can I ask why the hell anyone thinks it is a good thing when we get the extra hour of freaking sleep on the weekend. Now I would be really excited if we set them back on like a Monday!
9. As much laundry as I have to do I should be done by the end of the week. Then I will feel like I just went SHOPPING!
10. BECAUSE THE LANSINGBURGH KNOGHTS ARE GOING TO WIN THE CLASS A SECTION II STATE PLAYOFFS THIS WEEK, AND I CAN'T WAIT ANY LONGER!
Top Ten Accomplishments this Year
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 9/19/07
Okay so now that I have all of that off my chest, lets think about the things I did that I was proud of.
1. Well I finally got up enough courage ti leave Toyin alone. It was hard and I still love hime today, but it is good to close that chapter in my book.
2. I got a brand new washer and dryer.....a front loader, and I am loving it
3. Got some new rugs installed in the house, It brightens up the house alot, and those okd rugs stunk.
4. I paid of the majority of things on my credit report. 2-3 more things and I can qualify for a house.
5. I got a new job with GE. I am excited to start my new poaition and getting MORE MONEY
6. I have rekindled things with "the one I let go" Damn I miss my boy
7. I went back down to see my best friend Tasha this year. Shoot it is hard to get away when you are a single parent.
8. I bought a car! My 05 Nissan is wonderful, although the car payments are not
9. Studied real hard, took my GMATS and got a 570!!!!! I was so excited,,,which leads to
10. I got into grad school. I am going for my Masters in Business Administration (MBA) - executive style. And I am going to Europe next year with class!
Okay so now that I have all of that off my chest, lets think about the things I did that I was proud of.
1. Well I finally got up enough courage ti leave Toyin alone. It was hard and I still love hime today, but it is good to close that chapter in my book.
2. I got a brand new washer and dryer.....a front loader, and I am loving it
3. Got some new rugs installed in the house, It brightens up the house alot, and those okd rugs stunk.
4. I paid of the majority of things on my credit report. 2-3 more things and I can qualify for a house.
5. I got a new job with GE. I am excited to start my new poaition and getting MORE MONEY
6. I have rekindled things with "the one I let go" Damn I miss my boy
7. I went back down to see my best friend Tasha this year. Shoot it is hard to get away when you are a single parent.
8. I bought a car! My 05 Nissan is wonderful, although the car payments are not
9. Studied real hard, took my GMATS and got a 570!!!!! I was so excited,,,which leads to
10. I got into grad school. I am going for my Masters in Business Administration (MBA) - executive style. And I am going to Europe next year with class!
Top things that really pissed me off this week!
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 9/18/07
It hasn't been that bad of a week but I will say that I have been pissed off quite a few times this week. Some of these will have background stories, others will not, just general things...but here it is.
1. I came home again todat and the freaking house was a mess. I pick up everyday and it just never fails that shit will be all over the freaking house that wan't there when I left in the morning. How does this happen..... Oh I'm sorry ma, I will pick it up... To freaking late, I already did.
2. I got a new job and moved my desk. I should have known that the micro manager of my old depat couldn't wait ti go thru my stuff to see if I had anything left over that I was suppised to do and didn't. Come on now, did you think I was really that stupid. Esp. when I new you would be there first thing Monday morning.
3. I went to a bday party this weekend. I left my wallet in my moms car. B4 this, she asked me to pick her up a card, because I still had to go get one to. i called her to let her know I left my wallet,,,she picks up a card for herself and not for me....
4. i have been paying off my credit report so I can buy a house. /i am down to 2 bills and i notice that a bill I paid popped up under another credit agency. And no one can help me. I have to now pay the bill a second time because the original bill was never kept, and they have no clue which credit agency they sent it to. REQUEST A LETTER FOR ANTYTHING YOU PAY OFF!
5. So in response to problem 1, the big man nate decides that the clean clothes that are on the couch waiting to be folded should be put in with the dirty clothes. WTF????
6. I am really pissed that I just watched Damages, and I still don't know who set her up.
7. Even more pissed that they couldn't start HEROES a week earlier AND there has been no online novel for about a week now. I feel like I am truly going through withdrawal.
8. I am sick of people saying that "Tell Me You Love Me" is a porn show on HBO. It is not a porn show, it is about how people use sex to their advantage is different types of relationships. Porn is fucking and oooohhhing and ahhhhinng. The people on the show get it on just like I do
9. I am really upset that I have to go away to North Carolina this weekend and won't be able to see my son's football game
10. I met this guy a few weeks ago, and come to find out that he lives with his girlfriend (now of course I didn't know that). And how did I find this out? She called me, asked me some questions, then tried to add me as her friend (I think she just wanted to see my pics) then emailed me. WTF, if you are that insecure...go to counseling to improve your confidence. I DON'T WANT YOU MAN........
It hasn't been that bad of a week but I will say that I have been pissed off quite a few times this week. Some of these will have background stories, others will not, just general things...but here it is.
1. I came home again todat and the freaking house was a mess. I pick up everyday and it just never fails that shit will be all over the freaking house that wan't there when I left in the morning. How does this happen..... Oh I'm sorry ma, I will pick it up... To freaking late, I already did.
2. I got a new job and moved my desk. I should have known that the micro manager of my old depat couldn't wait ti go thru my stuff to see if I had anything left over that I was suppised to do and didn't. Come on now, did you think I was really that stupid. Esp. when I new you would be there first thing Monday morning.
3. I went to a bday party this weekend. I left my wallet in my moms car. B4 this, she asked me to pick her up a card, because I still had to go get one to. i called her to let her know I left my wallet,,,she picks up a card for herself and not for me....
4. i have been paying off my credit report so I can buy a house. /i am down to 2 bills and i notice that a bill I paid popped up under another credit agency. And no one can help me. I have to now pay the bill a second time because the original bill was never kept, and they have no clue which credit agency they sent it to. REQUEST A LETTER FOR ANTYTHING YOU PAY OFF!
5. So in response to problem 1, the big man nate decides that the clean clothes that are on the couch waiting to be folded should be put in with the dirty clothes. WTF????
6. I am really pissed that I just watched Damages, and I still don't know who set her up.
7. Even more pissed that they couldn't start HEROES a week earlier AND there has been no online novel for about a week now. I feel like I am truly going through withdrawal.
8. I am sick of people saying that "Tell Me You Love Me" is a porn show on HBO. It is not a porn show, it is about how people use sex to their advantage is different types of relationships. Porn is fucking and oooohhhing and ahhhhinng. The people on the show get it on just like I do
9. I am really upset that I have to go away to North Carolina this weekend and won't be able to see my son's football game
10. I met this guy a few weeks ago, and come to find out that he lives with his girlfriend (now of course I didn't know that). And how did I find this out? She called me, asked me some questions, then tried to add me as her friend (I think she just wanted to see my pics) then emailed me. WTF, if you are that insecure...go to counseling to improve your confidence. I DON'T WANT YOU MAN........
Top Ten Reason I hate Back to School
Move from Myspace. Original Post 6/6/07
Ok so this week was back to school. And although most of you stay at home parents are relieved, I am not. The main reason, because I am broke. Most if not all of these will relate to money, so be prepared.
1. Why is it that school does not last all day. When I was younger school started at like 7PM and got out at 4:30. Now school starts at 9 and gets out at 3. Can I ask what freaking person only works 9-3? now I gotta find a damn babysitter. before and after school.
2. Mentioning babysitters, why is it that no one just wants to watch your kid. And do it for cheap. I have to pay $60 a week for this nonsense. I wish I had family to watch my kidsfor free, like all of you other people do. Mom, can you quit your job and stay home and watch my kids? for free? It amazes me how the people who can afford to pay a babysitter are the ones who get babysitters for free.
3. Dayum those school lunches. Now I know ya'll think $1.75 and $.75 is cheap for meals but do you know that with 2 kids I am spending $80 on freaking food, during the school year. It really pained me to write those checks this morning.
4. School closings. When it closes, I can't go to work, when I can't go to work I have to take a vacation day. Another day wasted in the year
5. School clothes. I actually got some good deals this year, but I feel sorry for those who decided to just get whatever their kids wanted and ended up blowing a whole paycheck on stuff that they are going to outgrow in 6 months time.
6. Did you ever feel like how your kid does in school is a reflection of you. I cringe when my sone brings back a test and he did not do good. I feel like I just did not do riight by him.
7. Concerts, PTA meetings, Events. I really don't like them. I spend all day at work and really just want to go home and hang out with the boys. Instead you have to go with a bunch of of other screaming kids and parents alike. I hate afterschool activities.
8. Did I say anything about how much it costs to go back to school. Where are the days of free stuff...... books, supplies, food, daycare...
9. The competition. School is just another way for parents to boast of their own childs overachievements...not that I don't do it but it freaking annoys me that Susie gets a's in all of her classes and you hear about every week at church. WHO CARES! Everyone is not perfect.
10. The spelling tests have started agian. They bring back such bad memories
Ok so this week was back to school. And although most of you stay at home parents are relieved, I am not. The main reason, because I am broke. Most if not all of these will relate to money, so be prepared.
1. Why is it that school does not last all day. When I was younger school started at like 7PM and got out at 4:30. Now school starts at 9 and gets out at 3. Can I ask what freaking person only works 9-3? now I gotta find a damn babysitter. before and after school.
2. Mentioning babysitters, why is it that no one just wants to watch your kid. And do it for cheap. I have to pay $60 a week for this nonsense. I wish I had family to watch my kidsfor free, like all of you other people do. Mom, can you quit your job and stay home and watch my kids? for free? It amazes me how the people who can afford to pay a babysitter are the ones who get babysitters for free.
3. Dayum those school lunches. Now I know ya'll think $1.75 and $.75 is cheap for meals but do you know that with 2 kids I am spending $80 on freaking food, during the school year. It really pained me to write those checks this morning.
4. School closings. When it closes, I can't go to work, when I can't go to work I have to take a vacation day. Another day wasted in the year
5. School clothes. I actually got some good deals this year, but I feel sorry for those who decided to just get whatever their kids wanted and ended up blowing a whole paycheck on stuff that they are going to outgrow in 6 months time.
6. Did you ever feel like how your kid does in school is a reflection of you. I cringe when my sone brings back a test and he did not do good. I feel like I just did not do riight by him.
7. Concerts, PTA meetings, Events. I really don't like them. I spend all day at work and really just want to go home and hang out with the boys. Instead you have to go with a bunch of of other screaming kids and parents alike. I hate afterschool activities.
8. Did I say anything about how much it costs to go back to school. Where are the days of free stuff...... books, supplies, food, daycare...
9. The competition. School is just another way for parents to boast of their own childs overachievements...not that I don't do it but it freaking annoys me that Susie gets a's in all of her classes and you hear about every week at church. WHO CARES! Everyone is not perfect.
10. The spelling tests have started agian. They bring back such bad memories
Top Ten Fads from the 80’s and 90’s
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 8/22/07
Okay so I was watching Fresh Prince of BelAir last night cracking up. Not because he was funny but because of the stuff they wore and said. I was thinking that it would be a great topic for my top ten so here it is.
1. Skidz. Don't even try to act like you didn't have these balloon pants. We all looked like clowns with them
2. Jelly bracelets. They used to be fun, but I don't even remember why. I used to have one on my wrist and hook another around to go on my middle finger. They came back for a while, but not for the same uses. Shame on you children for ruining a good fad!
3. Two Tone pants. Remember the ones where it used to be dark in the front and light in the back or vice versa. These tried to make a come back but I don't think it worked. People like the worn look now.
4. Scrunchies. Man these were the best because you could put your hair up and have different colors to match your outfits. I remember when my family started to make them, and we would get ridiculous with the designs.
5. Half up and half down bangs. LOL Madd hairspray to keep the part that you curled back to stick up. How could we be so crazy
6.Reebox Pumps. I don't know how these were supposed to work, but Reebox had everyone thinking they would become Michal Jordan if they wore these sneaks. Talk about false advertising.
7. NKOTB.... All I got to say is Hangin Tough!
8. Rolling the pants on your legs so tight that thinking back it is a wonder your feet didn't fall off from lack of blood circulation. Top that off with the scrunchy socks your wore in layers to match every single color you wore that day.
9. Tamagotchi. Okay I had one of these, and it dies every day because I never took care of it. Hmmm maybe I should have thought of that before I had kids.
10. The WAP, Best dance ever, although sometime you thought you would pass out because you swung your head to hard. Tied with the Running Man. If I did this now it would just appear that I am skipping backwards. LOL
Okay so I was watching Fresh Prince of BelAir last night cracking up. Not because he was funny but because of the stuff they wore and said. I was thinking that it would be a great topic for my top ten so here it is.
1. Skidz. Don't even try to act like you didn't have these balloon pants. We all looked like clowns with them
2. Jelly bracelets. They used to be fun, but I don't even remember why. I used to have one on my wrist and hook another around to go on my middle finger. They came back for a while, but not for the same uses. Shame on you children for ruining a good fad!
3. Two Tone pants. Remember the ones where it used to be dark in the front and light in the back or vice versa. These tried to make a come back but I don't think it worked. People like the worn look now.
4. Scrunchies. Man these were the best because you could put your hair up and have different colors to match your outfits. I remember when my family started to make them, and we would get ridiculous with the designs.
5. Half up and half down bangs. LOL Madd hairspray to keep the part that you curled back to stick up. How could we be so crazy
6.Reebox Pumps. I don't know how these were supposed to work, but Reebox had everyone thinking they would become Michal Jordan if they wore these sneaks. Talk about false advertising.
7. NKOTB.... All I got to say is Hangin Tough!
8. Rolling the pants on your legs so tight that thinking back it is a wonder your feet didn't fall off from lack of blood circulation. Top that off with the scrunchy socks your wore in layers to match every single color you wore that day.
9. Tamagotchi. Okay I had one of these, and it dies every day because I never took care of it. Hmmm maybe I should have thought of that before I had kids.
10. The WAP, Best dance ever, although sometime you thought you would pass out because you swung your head to hard. Tied with the Running Man. If I did this now it would just appear that I am skipping backwards. LOL
Top Ten Things to do in the Capital District
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 8/14/07
Okay I got a 570 on my Gmats this weekend. I was so excited I decided I was going to go out and celebrate. After I went out I decided that I should not have even thought of that, and next time I should find dome more meaningful things to do with my time. So for those of you that are nerds like me, but also like to have a little fun, here is my top ten for the week.
1. Go check out the Albany Museum. As redundant as it is, there is usually always something new. The World Trade Center Exhibit is a great one. My youngest could stay all day in the kids part. I do miss the Thunder Room though. Anyone else remember that?
2. Take a walk on the plaza in Albany. It is a good time to just relax and reflect on life. The scene is really nice and if you go on a Saturday during the summer, there is usually something going on.
3. The Schenectady Planetarium. Even if you are not a geek, the planetarium is a fun place to go and watch the stars.
4. Park Playhouse. Although I really can't give them much credit this year. I was VERY Disappointed with the casting. The cast was too young and I think the guys were trying to act to much like John Travolta. They should bring a bit of themselves to the character. Any other year has been wonderful.
5. There is always the Racino or currently the Saratoga racetrack. I am not a huge gambler, but I don't mind watching the races. Besides there are so many people there, that I could just sit around and watch everyone.
6. Okay, now I am really trying to pull stuff out of my ass, because it is becoming harder to think about what to around here. Every saturday Powers Park has a live band play for free. They usually do a different genre each week, I think last week the did Billy Joel.
7. Go to your local bar... NOT THE CLUB, just a bar. Most of the time you can have a much better time there, vs a club.
8. Take a walk on the Corning Preserve or catch Alive at 5. Rueben was there one week. You just have to catch an act there at the right time.
9. Visit Cherry Hill. We went there when I was younger for a field trip. It was very educational, but it was also beautiful. It is located in the South End of Albany. Hopefully it is still open.
10. If you really have nothing else to do, call me and you can take me to my favorite restaurant (and pay for it) so we can celebrate mygrade on my GMAT, my new job, and hopefully my entrance into Grad School! WooHoo
Okay I got a 570 on my Gmats this weekend. I was so excited I decided I was going to go out and celebrate. After I went out I decided that I should not have even thought of that, and next time I should find dome more meaningful things to do with my time. So for those of you that are nerds like me, but also like to have a little fun, here is my top ten for the week.
1. Go check out the Albany Museum. As redundant as it is, there is usually always something new. The World Trade Center Exhibit is a great one. My youngest could stay all day in the kids part. I do miss the Thunder Room though. Anyone else remember that?
2. Take a walk on the plaza in Albany. It is a good time to just relax and reflect on life. The scene is really nice and if you go on a Saturday during the summer, there is usually something going on.
3. The Schenectady Planetarium. Even if you are not a geek, the planetarium is a fun place to go and watch the stars.
4. Park Playhouse. Although I really can't give them much credit this year. I was VERY Disappointed with the casting. The cast was too young and I think the guys were trying to act to much like John Travolta. They should bring a bit of themselves to the character. Any other year has been wonderful.
5. There is always the Racino or currently the Saratoga racetrack. I am not a huge gambler, but I don't mind watching the races. Besides there are so many people there, that I could just sit around and watch everyone.
6. Okay, now I am really trying to pull stuff out of my ass, because it is becoming harder to think about what to around here. Every saturday Powers Park has a live band play for free. They usually do a different genre each week, I think last week the did Billy Joel.
7. Go to your local bar... NOT THE CLUB, just a bar. Most of the time you can have a much better time there, vs a club.
8. Take a walk on the Corning Preserve or catch Alive at 5. Rueben was there one week. You just have to catch an act there at the right time.
9. Visit Cherry Hill. We went there when I was younger for a field trip. It was very educational, but it was also beautiful. It is located in the South End of Albany. Hopefully it is still open.
10. If you really have nothing else to do, call me and you can take me to my favorite restaurant (and pay for it) so we can celebrate mygrade on my GMAT, my new job, and hopefully my entrance into Grad School! WooHoo
Top Ten Reasons To Stay Single
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 8/8/07
Thanks Shaketa for the topic. So here it is...
1. The toilet seat will always be where you left it. Unless you have kids at home who happen to be male, and always leave the seat up anyway. So I guess if you are in that situation (like me) it really does not count.
2. Getting the entire bed to yourself. I love to sprawl across my bed. When my ex stayed over, I felt like I had 5 inches of room to sleep.
3. You have the final say on what to watch on the TV. No arguing over soccer vs animal planet.
4. You can come home at 5am, 6am or even 7am without having someone ask you where you have been.
5. One less Birthday and Christmas present to buy
6. Going back to the bathroom.... You don't have to worry about what the bathroom smells like after you have been in there for a good ten minutes.
7. When you are single, Your Opinion is always the Best Opinion
8. You can enjoy all of the silent time you want (once you kick the kids out)
9. When you are single you can tell the person who criticizes your driving to GET OUT!
10. If you are so inclined you can see a different face when you wakeup in the morning, every day of the week!
Thanks Shaketa for the topic. So here it is...
1. The toilet seat will always be where you left it. Unless you have kids at home who happen to be male, and always leave the seat up anyway. So I guess if you are in that situation (like me) it really does not count.
2. Getting the entire bed to yourself. I love to sprawl across my bed. When my ex stayed over, I felt like I had 5 inches of room to sleep.
3. You have the final say on what to watch on the TV. No arguing over soccer vs animal planet.
4. You can come home at 5am, 6am or even 7am without having someone ask you where you have been.
5. One less Birthday and Christmas present to buy
6. Going back to the bathroom.... You don't have to worry about what the bathroom smells like after you have been in there for a good ten minutes.
7. When you are single, Your Opinion is always the Best Opinion
8. You can enjoy all of the silent time you want (once you kick the kids out)
9. When you are single you can tell the person who criticizes your driving to GET OUT!
10. If you are so inclined you can see a different face when you wakeup in the morning, every day of the week!
Pissed
Moved from Myspace. Original Post 7/24/07
really was in a good mood today. As a matter of fact I was really in a great mood today. Then my ex called me. Instantaneously I went into a bad mood. We were supposed to meet this weekend so he could help me with my GMAT studying, I called, got no answer and got no return call. Here it is on Tuesday and I get a call from him saying he had an emergency out of town. Ok so I don't know if I am mad because 1. He did not return my call until Tuesday 2. He is lying to me 3. Because he has begun to see someone else. I know the last is true because he has no other family here in the US and would have no reason to travel out of town other than to go on a trip with someone (as he always did with me). It was confirmed when he said he would meet me on Sunday night to help me study. I know he has shit to do on the weekends, so he is seeing someone else. I guess I have really tried to get over this and try to be friends, but today confirmed that it really is not possible. It is hard for me to know that he has moved on so seriously with someone else. Not that i have not had my fare share of fun :) but not to the extent that he has, it kinda pissed me off. So I emailed him amd told him I couldn't meet this weekend either. I just figure it would be a lot easier to let it go slowly rather than force it to happen. That way it leaves room open for us to be cool in the future. Damn it, why did he have to call!
really was in a good mood today. As a matter of fact I was really in a great mood today. Then my ex called me. Instantaneously I went into a bad mood. We were supposed to meet this weekend so he could help me with my GMAT studying, I called, got no answer and got no return call. Here it is on Tuesday and I get a call from him saying he had an emergency out of town. Ok so I don't know if I am mad because 1. He did not return my call until Tuesday 2. He is lying to me 3. Because he has begun to see someone else. I know the last is true because he has no other family here in the US and would have no reason to travel out of town other than to go on a trip with someone (as he always did with me). It was confirmed when he said he would meet me on Sunday night to help me study. I know he has shit to do on the weekends, so he is seeing someone else. I guess I have really tried to get over this and try to be friends, but today confirmed that it really is not possible. It is hard for me to know that he has moved on so seriously with someone else. Not that i have not had my fare share of fun :) but not to the extent that he has, it kinda pissed me off. So I emailed him amd told him I couldn't meet this weekend either. I just figure it would be a lot easier to let it go slowly rather than force it to happen. That way it leaves room open for us to be cool in the future. Damn it, why did he have to call!
Why i Should Be The Next President
Moved from Myspace. Original post 7/23/07
Thanks Eric for the topic. I was going to do say why you should be president, but decided that I would make a better president than you.
1. I know how to spell and read
2. I can write my own speeches and not mess up what I wrote. Besides I would look a lot better on TV
3. I would bring the troops home and let the middle east do what it wishes. Burn it All......Although I would still protect Israel.
4. I would send competent people to help when a hurricane hit.
5. I would not waste billions of dollars on a war when we have people in our own country who cannot eat or put a roof over their head.
6. In reference to 5, I would not boast because the minimum wage just rose to $5.85. How the hell are you supposed to feed yourself on that. Thats an average $234.00 before taxes. Are you kidding?
7. I would let the immigrants stay. Don't even go there..We can kick them out when everyone else in America decides that they want to pick crops on farmland for the federal mandated minimum wage.
8. I would marry Eric, who would be the most handsome first black man in the white house
9. I would change the damn tax laws. Why is it that when I fill out my taxes I have a gazillion forms to fill out. It would be simple....
How much do you make?
Give me 10% of that
10. I would fit the quota for the first black and the first femal president. BTW my vice president would be drumroll please...my sister Nichole. Because I would make the decisions and she would enforce them. You know she don't give a shit what people think about her, as long as the damn job gets done.
Thanks Eric for the topic. I was going to do say why you should be president, but decided that I would make a better president than you.
1. I know how to spell and read
2. I can write my own speeches and not mess up what I wrote. Besides I would look a lot better on TV
3. I would bring the troops home and let the middle east do what it wishes. Burn it All......Although I would still protect Israel.
4. I would send competent people to help when a hurricane hit.
5. I would not waste billions of dollars on a war when we have people in our own country who cannot eat or put a roof over their head.
6. In reference to 5, I would not boast because the minimum wage just rose to $5.85. How the hell are you supposed to feed yourself on that. Thats an average $234.00 before taxes. Are you kidding?
7. I would let the immigrants stay. Don't even go there..We can kick them out when everyone else in America decides that they want to pick crops on farmland for the federal mandated minimum wage.
8. I would marry Eric, who would be the most handsome first black man in the white house
9. I would change the damn tax laws. Why is it that when I fill out my taxes I have a gazillion forms to fill out. It would be simple....
How much do you make?
Give me 10% of that
10. I would fit the quota for the first black and the first femal president. BTW my vice president would be drumroll please...my sister Nichole. Because I would make the decisions and she would enforce them. You know she don't give a shit what people think about her, as long as the damn job gets done.
Why We Hate Work
Moved From Myspace. Original Post 7/19/07
1. The work we do now is work that our children could probably do, but they require you to have a bachelors degree.
2. We all have that Micromanager that looks over our shoulder for everything we do. Print this, write this. This is wrong wrong wrong. Hey if you don't like it, do it yourself
3. How about the person who likes to kill a whole rainforest in one day.. That shit just annoys me. Ever heard of email?
4. Those stupid meetings where we all discuss what we are going to do and nothing ever gets done. Next week we will able be talking about the same thing that was on the agenda this week. Why? Because no one did what they said they were going to do.
5. Someone keeps making that food that really stinks. Everytime is goes in the microwave it smells like a freaking horse just died. Don't beleive me? Wait till one of your coworkers tries to microwave broccolli
6. There is always that one person that needs to have the last word no matter what. You make a suggestion and he has got something better. You ask for people not to do something because it is wrong (you are actually talking about him) and he comes up with every justification as to why he is doing it right and everyone else is wrong.
7. We all have or have had a boss who has no balls. They just sit there and let everyone walk all over them. So in essence you really don't even have a boss. He is just a paper pusher who gets 5 times more money than you. The worst part is that if everyone called in one day and your boss was the only one there, would he/she even know what to do? Probably not, because none of them know what we do.
8. None of us get paid enough to deal with the nonsense. When I get my check every other week, I am like DAYUM that's it?
9. The happy go lucky people who absolutely love their job. They have been working in the same department for 25 years and they see nothing outside of the little box they are working in. They are completely satisfied and try to convince you why you should be.
10. Ever notice how much you eat at work? My place of employment has a whole break room stacked with food. I am finding myself getting hungry. Gotta go because I could use some Doritos, mac and chees, and a ice cream sandwich at 10:30.
Have a great day!
1. The work we do now is work that our children could probably do, but they require you to have a bachelors degree.
2. We all have that Micromanager that looks over our shoulder for everything we do. Print this, write this. This is wrong wrong wrong. Hey if you don't like it, do it yourself
3. How about the person who likes to kill a whole rainforest in one day.. That shit just annoys me. Ever heard of email?
4. Those stupid meetings where we all discuss what we are going to do and nothing ever gets done. Next week we will able be talking about the same thing that was on the agenda this week. Why? Because no one did what they said they were going to do.
5. Someone keeps making that food that really stinks. Everytime is goes in the microwave it smells like a freaking horse just died. Don't beleive me? Wait till one of your coworkers tries to microwave broccolli
6. There is always that one person that needs to have the last word no matter what. You make a suggestion and he has got something better. You ask for people not to do something because it is wrong (you are actually talking about him) and he comes up with every justification as to why he is doing it right and everyone else is wrong.
7. We all have or have had a boss who has no balls. They just sit there and let everyone walk all over them. So in essence you really don't even have a boss. He is just a paper pusher who gets 5 times more money than you. The worst part is that if everyone called in one day and your boss was the only one there, would he/she even know what to do? Probably not, because none of them know what we do.
8. None of us get paid enough to deal with the nonsense. When I get my check every other week, I am like DAYUM that's it?
9. The happy go lucky people who absolutely love their job. They have been working in the same department for 25 years and they see nothing outside of the little box they are working in. They are completely satisfied and try to convince you why you should be.
10. Ever notice how much you eat at work? My place of employment has a whole break room stacked with food. I am finding myself getting hungry. Gotta go because I could use some Doritos, mac and chees, and a ice cream sandwich at 10:30.
Have a great day!
You know You are an Adult When
Moved From Myspace. Original Post 7/18/07
Okay, so I was talking to a good friend, and she suggested I blog about the topic above. So here it is. My top things of how you know you are really an adult.
1. You get excited about getting things like appliances (I GOT MY WASHER AND DRYER) and installed rugs instead of the newest sneakers that just came out. (this is what started this blog)
2. You go to the bank, set up an account, and you designate a certain amount of money to go into your savings, vacation club, christmas club, and whatever other "special" clubs they have.
3. You go to bed at 9PM at night because you have to get up at 6AM to get ready for work. When you try to stay up, you wake up at 3AM and realize you must have fell asleep in the middle of the show.
4. You plan ahead to pay your bills. Maybe you are like me and have budget sheet, so you know exactly what you have to pay the Friday you get paid, and know how much it is you will have left over.
5. You no longer do as many things on a whim. If you and your girlfriends want to go out or even if you are planning something with the kids, it has to be scheduled a week in advance.
6. You are yelling at your kids for the same reason your parents yelled at you 10 years ago. Clean your room, do the dishes. "Why is it that I go to work everyday and bust my ass, and still have to come home to a messy house?"
7. Instead of watching MTV and BET, you watch Lifetime and the Home and Garden Channel.
8. Alot of your friends are from work and much older than you.
9. You go out to a party and a song comes on that you have never heard before. When you go home and ask your children, they can recite it word for word.
10. When you do that budget is 4, you find yourself budgeting for groceries
11. The reason you don't know any of the music in 9 is because you listen to the adult radio station and you know all of the words to Neil Diamond songs.
12. When you go to a store, the first section you want to go to is either the household section or the cleaning supplies section.
13. You check your credit every month to make sure your score is getting higher so you can buy a house.
14. Freddy Krueger doesn't scare you anymore, but the bill collector does.
15. You try to do the running man but look like you are just skipping backwards
16. You spend your entire workday daydreaming about your younger years and wondering why you had to grow up. You liked it when the only worry you had was "Hmmm what am I going to wear today"
If you know anymore, Comment my blog and leave them!
Okay, so I was talking to a good friend, and she suggested I blog about the topic above. So here it is. My top things of how you know you are really an adult.
1. You get excited about getting things like appliances (I GOT MY WASHER AND DRYER) and installed rugs instead of the newest sneakers that just came out. (this is what started this blog)
2. You go to the bank, set up an account, and you designate a certain amount of money to go into your savings, vacation club, christmas club, and whatever other "special" clubs they have.
3. You go to bed at 9PM at night because you have to get up at 6AM to get ready for work. When you try to stay up, you wake up at 3AM and realize you must have fell asleep in the middle of the show.
4. You plan ahead to pay your bills. Maybe you are like me and have budget sheet, so you know exactly what you have to pay the Friday you get paid, and know how much it is you will have left over.
5. You no longer do as many things on a whim. If you and your girlfriends want to go out or even if you are planning something with the kids, it has to be scheduled a week in advance.
6. You are yelling at your kids for the same reason your parents yelled at you 10 years ago. Clean your room, do the dishes. "Why is it that I go to work everyday and bust my ass, and still have to come home to a messy house?"
7. Instead of watching MTV and BET, you watch Lifetime and the Home and Garden Channel.
8. Alot of your friends are from work and much older than you.
9. You go out to a party and a song comes on that you have never heard before. When you go home and ask your children, they can recite it word for word.
10. When you do that budget is 4, you find yourself budgeting for groceries
11. The reason you don't know any of the music in 9 is because you listen to the adult radio station and you know all of the words to Neil Diamond songs.
12. When you go to a store, the first section you want to go to is either the household section or the cleaning supplies section.
13. You check your credit every month to make sure your score is getting higher so you can buy a house.
14. Freddy Krueger doesn't scare you anymore, but the bill collector does.
15. You try to do the running man but look like you are just skipping backwards
16. You spend your entire workday daydreaming about your younger years and wondering why you had to grow up. You liked it when the only worry you had was "Hmmm what am I going to wear today"
If you know anymore, Comment my blog and leave them!
Weight Loss
Moved From Myspace. Original Post 7/9/07
Okay, so I have tried to go onto weight watchers with people here at work and it has not worked. Why? Because all of us like to eat. A friend of mine had gastric bypass surgery today. We will have to see how it goes. I have joined this site called www.sparkpeople.com. I want to try this site out first. It actually plans out ALL of your meals for you. No guess work, No Nothing. Just good ole fashioned eating healthy. Hopefully I will be able to afford some healthy things to eat. I will let you know how it goes by end of week one. Oh yeah I am starting next week, so you won't hear anything from me until approx next Friday. Talk to you then!
Okay, so I have tried to go onto weight watchers with people here at work and it has not worked. Why? Because all of us like to eat. A friend of mine had gastric bypass surgery today. We will have to see how it goes. I have joined this site called www.sparkpeople.com. I want to try this site out first. It actually plans out ALL of your meals for you. No guess work, No Nothing. Just good ole fashioned eating healthy. Hopefully I will be able to afford some healthy things to eat. I will let you know how it goes by end of week one. Oh yeah I am starting next week, so you won't hear anything from me until approx next Friday. Talk to you then!
Random Questions
Moved From Myspace. Original Post 6/29/07
I just have some random questions. Maybe some of you have the answers and some of you don't. So here they are.
1. Why didn't we listen to our parents when they said we would miss our teenage years? and why don't our kids listen to us when we tell them the same?
2. What's the difference between a novel and a book?
3. How old are you before it can be said you died of old age?
4. If humans evolved from monkey's/apes, why are they still here?
5.Why doesn't glue stick to the inside of the bottle?
6. Why are both of Spongebob's parents round like sea sponges while he is square like a kitchen sponge?
7. Why do we sing "Rock a bye baby" to lull our little ones to sleep when the song is about putting your baby in a tree and letting the wind crash the cradle to the ground?
8. If the Wicked Witch of the West melts in water... how did she ever bathe?
9. Why do sleeping pills have warning labels that state :'Caution: May Cause Drowsiness?
10. Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles are always white?
11. Why are the adjectives 'fast as' and 'slow as' often used in conjunction with hell, is hell slow or fast?
12. Why does every Abraham Lincoln impersonator sound the same, even though there are no known audio recordings of the man?
13. Why does the Easter bunny carry eggs? Rabbits don't lay eggs.
14. How does Freddy Kruger wipe his butt?
15. What shape is the sky?
16. Why is it that people duck in the rain, do they really think the rain won't hit them?
17. Why do they put holes in crackers?
18. Is it legal to name your kid "Anonymous"?
19. Why do they put Braille dots on the keypad of the drive-up ATM?
20. Why do grocery stores buy so many checkout line registers if they only keep 3 or 4 open?
21. If The Flintstones were B.C. and before America, why did they have Flintstones Thanksgiving and Flintstones Christmas?
22. What came first, the fruit or the color orange?
23. Why do people say "You scared the living daylights out of me" when daylight is not living?
I just have some random questions. Maybe some of you have the answers and some of you don't. So here they are.
1. Why didn't we listen to our parents when they said we would miss our teenage years? and why don't our kids listen to us when we tell them the same?
2. What's the difference between a novel and a book?
3. How old are you before it can be said you died of old age?
4. If humans evolved from monkey's/apes, why are they still here?
5.Why doesn't glue stick to the inside of the bottle?
6. Why are both of Spongebob's parents round like sea sponges while he is square like a kitchen sponge?
7. Why do we sing "Rock a bye baby" to lull our little ones to sleep when the song is about putting your baby in a tree and letting the wind crash the cradle to the ground?
8. If the Wicked Witch of the West melts in water... how did she ever bathe?
9. Why do sleeping pills have warning labels that state :'Caution: May Cause Drowsiness?
10. Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles are always white?
11. Why are the adjectives 'fast as' and 'slow as' often used in conjunction with hell, is hell slow or fast?
12. Why does every Abraham Lincoln impersonator sound the same, even though there are no known audio recordings of the man?
13. Why does the Easter bunny carry eggs? Rabbits don't lay eggs.
14. How does Freddy Kruger wipe his butt?
15. What shape is the sky?
16. Why is it that people duck in the rain, do they really think the rain won't hit them?
17. Why do they put holes in crackers?
18. Is it legal to name your kid "Anonymous"?
19. Why do they put Braille dots on the keypad of the drive-up ATM?
20. Why do grocery stores buy so many checkout line registers if they only keep 3 or 4 open?
21. If The Flintstones were B.C. and before America, why did they have Flintstones Thanksgiving and Flintstones Christmas?
22. What came first, the fruit or the color orange?
23. Why do people say "You scared the living daylights out of me" when daylight is not living?
My take on the news today
Moved From Myspace. Original Post 6/22/07
Hi Everyone. My N key is not working very well so if there is a letter missing, that is probably what it is. So I have some things to talk about today.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19373567/
DNA test shows Murphy is Mel B.'s baby daddy
So did anyone else here realize that Mel B's baby was born on Eddie Murphy's birthday? I only know becuz it is my birthday also. :) I am shocked that no one has acknowledged that. Eddie Murphy should have known that the day he made that lame comment "And I don't know whose child that is until it comes out and has a blood test. You shouldn't jump to conclusions, sir." that this baby was going to turn out to be his. Keep your business private Eddie. And keep your mouth shut until you get the whole truth. this incident has mad you look lame.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19374216/
New survey tells how much sex we're having
29 percent of men, 9 percent of women say they've had 15 or more partners
The original headig sttes that the average man sleep with 7 women. all I have to ask is how many of you men and women agree. They must not have called any of my male or female friends.....
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19355437/
Straight from the pen! Jailed Paris writes fans
Ok now why in the world did Paris think that she would be able to write people back and no one was going to sell the letter to the news media. Shoot, I am writing Paris right now, so she can write me back and I can sell the letter on ebay.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19368053/
Touchdown! Atlantis lands in California
This story makes me wonder why it is that a regular plane can land when it is cloudy and raining, but the damn space shuttle can't. Also why does it need a parachute to stop? Are we really safe in the planes we fly in today. I am bringing a parachute in my carryon next time.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19375461/
Hospital may lose license after ER lobby death
I am just going to reiterate something that Chris Rock said. Why is it that you ever want to be on a street (or hospital) named after the greatest advocate for peace?
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19374395/from/RS.2/
Osbournes sell house to Christina Aguilera
Would this have made the news if the heading was "Osbournes sell house to Hope Gause". Probably not. Personally who cares who bought who's house. Only the neighbors should care.
http://articles.moneycentral.msn.com/Banking/Advice/WalMartPlansPoorManBank.aspx
Wal-Mart plans poor man's 'bank'
If I am poor it means I do not have eough moeyto do anything let alone save anything to put in the bank. They should abandon this idea again.
http://potw.news.yahoo.com/s/potw/15605/william-sledd-is-not-a-fashion-
William Sledd is Not a (Fashion) Victim
You all have got to on to you tube and check out his videos. They are hilarious. My favorite is the overalls critiquing. People should not wear overalls especially ones with Winnie the Pooh on them.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070622/ap_en_ot/people_hasselhoff;_ylt=AkesFp6llYMmgAqvLEQpShHMWM0F
Hasselhoff demands apology from tabloid
If you are a drunk, you should just go get help. Oh yeah thats right you already had your daughter tape you to show the world that you are a drunk, and you still haven't gone to get help. Please explain to me why the judge gave him custody?
Ok that is it. The lives of celebrities is rough .
On an end note though, please pray for Jessie Davis and the girl who had her legs cut off on the superman ride in Kentucky....
My take on the news today
Moved From Myspace. Original Post 6/22/07
Hi Everyone. My N key is not working very well so if there is a letter missing, that is probably what it is. So I have some things to talk about today.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19373567/
DNA test shows Murphy is Mel B.'s baby daddy
So did anyone else here realize that Mel B's baby was born on Eddie Murphy's birthday? I only know becuz it is my birthday also. :) I am shocked that no one has acknowledged that. Eddie Murphy should have known that the day he made that lame comment "And I don't know whose child that is until it comes out and has a blood test. You shouldn't jump to conclusions, sir." that this baby was going to turn out to be his. Keep your business private Eddie. And keep your mouth shut until you get the whole truth. this incident has mad you look lame.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19374216/
New survey tells how much sex we're having
29 percent of men, 9 percent of women say they've had 15 or more partners
The original headig sttes that the average man sleep with 7 women. all I have to ask is how many of you men and women agree. They must not have called any of my male or female friends.....
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19355437/
Straight from the pen! Jailed Paris writes fans
Ok now why in the world did Paris think that she would be able to write people back and no one was going to sell the letter to the news media. Shoot, I am writing Paris right now, so she can write me back and I can sell the letter on ebay.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19368053/
Touchdown! Atlantis lands in California
This story makes me wonder why it is that a regular plane can land when it is cloudy and raining, but the damn space shuttle can't. Also why does it need a parachute to stop? Are we really safe in the planes we fly in today. I am bringing a parachute in my carryon next time.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19375461/
Hospital may lose license after ER lobby death
I am just going to reiterate something that Chris Rock said. Why is it that you ever want to be on a street (or hospital) named after the greatest advocate for peace?
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19374395/from/RS.2/
Osbournes sell house to Christina Aguilera
Would this have made the news if the heading was "Osbournes sell house to Hope Gause". Probably not. Personally who cares who bought who's house. Only the neighbors should care.
http://articles.moneycentral.msn.com/Banking/Advice/WalMartPlansPoorManBank.aspx
Wal-Mart plans poor man's 'bank'
If I am poor it means I do not have eough moeyto do anything let alone save anything to put in the bank. They should abandon this idea again.
http://potw.news.yahoo.com/s/potw/15605/william-sledd-is-not-a-fashion-
William Sledd is Not a (Fashion) Victim
You all have got to on to you tube and check out his videos. They are hilarious. My favorite is the overalls critiquing. People should not wear overalls especially ones with Winnie the Pooh on them.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070622/ap_en_ot/people_hasselhoff;_ylt=AkesFp6llYMmgAqvLEQpShHMWM0F
Hasselhoff demands apology from tabloid
If you are a drunk, you should just go get help. Oh yeah thats right you already had your daughter tape you to show the world that you are a drunk, and you still haven't gone to get help. Please explain to me why the judge gave him custody?
Ok that is it. The lives of celebrities is rough .
On an end note though, please pray for Jessie Davis and the girl who had her legs cut off on the superman ride in Kentucky....
Hi Everyone. My N key is not working very well so if there is a letter missing, that is probably what it is. So I have some things to talk about today.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19373567/
DNA test shows Murphy is Mel B.'s baby daddy
So did anyone else here realize that Mel B's baby was born on Eddie Murphy's birthday? I only know becuz it is my birthday also. :) I am shocked that no one has acknowledged that. Eddie Murphy should have known that the day he made that lame comment "And I don't know whose child that is until it comes out and has a blood test. You shouldn't jump to conclusions, sir." that this baby was going to turn out to be his. Keep your business private Eddie. And keep your mouth shut until you get the whole truth. this incident has mad you look lame.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19374216/
New survey tells how much sex we're having
29 percent of men, 9 percent of women say they've had 15 or more partners
The original headig sttes that the average man sleep with 7 women. all I have to ask is how many of you men and women agree. They must not have called any of my male or female friends.....
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19355437/
Straight from the pen! Jailed Paris writes fans
Ok now why in the world did Paris think that she would be able to write people back and no one was going to sell the letter to the news media. Shoot, I am writing Paris right now, so she can write me back and I can sell the letter on ebay.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19368053/
Touchdown! Atlantis lands in California
This story makes me wonder why it is that a regular plane can land when it is cloudy and raining, but the damn space shuttle can't. Also why does it need a parachute to stop? Are we really safe in the planes we fly in today. I am bringing a parachute in my carryon next time.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19375461/
Hospital may lose license after ER lobby death
I am just going to reiterate something that Chris Rock said. Why is it that you ever want to be on a street (or hospital) named after the greatest advocate for peace?
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19374395/from/RS.2/
Osbournes sell house to Christina Aguilera
Would this have made the news if the heading was "Osbournes sell house to Hope Gause". Probably not. Personally who cares who bought who's house. Only the neighbors should care.
http://articles.moneycentral.msn.com/Banking/Advice/WalMartPlansPoorManBank.aspx
Wal-Mart plans poor man's 'bank'
If I am poor it means I do not have eough moeyto do anything let alone save anything to put in the bank. They should abandon this idea again.
http://potw.news.yahoo.com/s/potw/15605/william-sledd-is-not-a-fashion-
William Sledd is Not a (Fashion) Victim
You all have got to on to you tube and check out his videos. They are hilarious. My favorite is the overalls critiquing. People should not wear overalls especially ones with Winnie the Pooh on them.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070622/ap_en_ot/people_hasselhoff;_ylt=AkesFp6llYMmgAqvLEQpShHMWM0F
Hasselhoff demands apology from tabloid
If you are a drunk, you should just go get help. Oh yeah thats right you already had your daughter tape you to show the world that you are a drunk, and you still haven't gone to get help. Please explain to me why the judge gave him custody?
Ok that is it. The lives of celebrities is rough .
On an end note though, please pray for Jessie Davis and the girl who had her legs cut off on the superman ride in Kentucky....
Busy Weekend
Moved From Myspace. Original Post 6/20/07
Ok here I am again blogging about life. A few things happened over the weekend
Friday - It was pretty uneventful. I went to the movies with my friend Sandra. We saw Fantastic 4. A friend of mine was supposed to meet us, but he couldn't come. It really was a great movie. I liked it a lot better than the first. Definitely much more emotional this time around. And can I say that Julian McMahon is Freaking HOT. Damn he plays in Nip Tuck also, and he is a FREAK in the show. I can't wait to buy Season 4 .
Saturday – This was the longest day of the week for me. I had to take Man Man to practice in the morning. I couldn't even tell you what I did for the rest of the afternoon. Oh yeah, I planted my watermelon and strawberries. It was good. Then we had to get ready for Emmanuel's show. It was great. The only complaint is that it was supposed to start at 8pm and we didn't even get let in until 8:30. The show was great, and my boy was wonderful. He bit his nails a lot on stage though. He also almost fell and my sister was cracking up. It was kinda funny. I will post a video as soon as I can download, so all of you can see the actor he is becoming… Toyin pissed me off, but I will get into that a bit later.
Sunday – We went to Great Escape. All I have to say is that I will NEVER go with the whole family again. We were supposed to leave at 9:30, we didn't leave until 10:30. Then we had to stop at Walmart, which took another hour. Then we ate outside of Great Escape. Feeding all of the kids took another hour. Eventually I headed in with Sandra, because I didn't want to wait any longer. I really do not have a high tolerance for all the kids. Most of the time my kids and I just go off and do our own thing. It is easier than having to agree with 20 other people what to do. We did go on the Tornado and let me tell you that it was a BLAST. I swear I almost had an asthma attack once. It was great!. We got Season passes so if anyone wants to go….. just write and we will plan a trip.
Ok so now about Toyin. This asshole invited himself to Man Man's play. The play was supposed to start at 8pm. Well he did not get there until 8:30. The play hadn't started yet, but it was the point of the matter. What was really bad was that Man Man kept asking where he was because he expected him to be there. Of course he can up with a gazillion excuses as to why he was late, but at that point it didn't even matter. We argued and I just left. I couldn't deal with him, and realized on Saturday, that it was time to cut the cord. I am sick of the excuses, bullshit and lies he gives me. He emailed me on Monday, and I told him. We have not talked since. It is like a burden has been lifted off of my back. I mean we weren't together, but it was getting to the point where it became very hard to tolerate him, knowing how much of a liar he is…
My weight loss journey has not been easy. There is always some special occasion to eat, and I have decided to just start telling people NO! So I am seriously starting my diet. I will give you a weekly update with pictures. If I get bold enough, I will tell you how much I lost. Please give me your support.
TaTa for now
Ok here I am again blogging about life. A few things happened over the weekend
Friday - It was pretty uneventful. I went to the movies with my friend Sandra. We saw Fantastic 4. A friend of mine was supposed to meet us, but he couldn't come. It really was a great movie. I liked it a lot better than the first. Definitely much more emotional this time around. And can I say that Julian McMahon is Freaking HOT. Damn he plays in Nip Tuck also, and he is a FREAK in the show. I can't wait to buy Season 4 .
Saturday – This was the longest day of the week for me. I had to take Man Man to practice in the morning. I couldn't even tell you what I did for the rest of the afternoon. Oh yeah, I planted my watermelon and strawberries. It was good. Then we had to get ready for Emmanuel's show. It was great. The only complaint is that it was supposed to start at 8pm and we didn't even get let in until 8:30. The show was great, and my boy was wonderful. He bit his nails a lot on stage though. He also almost fell and my sister was cracking up. It was kinda funny. I will post a video as soon as I can download, so all of you can see the actor he is becoming… Toyin pissed me off, but I will get into that a bit later.
Sunday – We went to Great Escape. All I have to say is that I will NEVER go with the whole family again. We were supposed to leave at 9:30, we didn't leave until 10:30. Then we had to stop at Walmart, which took another hour. Then we ate outside of Great Escape. Feeding all of the kids took another hour. Eventually I headed in with Sandra, because I didn't want to wait any longer. I really do not have a high tolerance for all the kids. Most of the time my kids and I just go off and do our own thing. It is easier than having to agree with 20 other people what to do. We did go on the Tornado and let me tell you that it was a BLAST. I swear I almost had an asthma attack once. It was great!. We got Season passes so if anyone wants to go….. just write and we will plan a trip.
Ok so now about Toyin. This asshole invited himself to Man Man's play. The play was supposed to start at 8pm. Well he did not get there until 8:30. The play hadn't started yet, but it was the point of the matter. What was really bad was that Man Man kept asking where he was because he expected him to be there. Of course he can up with a gazillion excuses as to why he was late, but at that point it didn't even matter. We argued and I just left. I couldn't deal with him, and realized on Saturday, that it was time to cut the cord. I am sick of the excuses, bullshit and lies he gives me. He emailed me on Monday, and I told him. We have not talked since. It is like a burden has been lifted off of my back. I mean we weren't together, but it was getting to the point where it became very hard to tolerate him, knowing how much of a liar he is…
My weight loss journey has not been easy. There is always some special occasion to eat, and I have decided to just start telling people NO! So I am seriously starting my diet. I will give you a weekly update with pictures. If I get bold enough, I will tell you how much I lost. Please give me your support.
TaTa for now
Weight Loss
Moved From Myspace. Original Post 6/11/07
My Weight Loss,
Well tomorrow I start my diet. I am excited but scared also. I love to eat. I like to try different things, but I won't be able to do it for a while. We are starting weight watchers tomorrow at my job. There are about 5 other people who are doing it with us! Hopefully we all ca lose some weight.
I have tried LA Weight Loss and go to the gym often. but I just cannot seem to lose it. I am really not happy being how I am, but I know with some discipline I can do it. I will keep you all up to date o a weekly basis, and we will see what happens. I need all of your support.
My Weight Loss,
Well tomorrow I start my diet. I am excited but scared also. I love to eat. I like to try different things, but I won't be able to do it for a while. We are starting weight watchers tomorrow at my job. There are about 5 other people who are doing it with us! Hopefully we all ca lose some weight.
I have tried LA Weight Loss and go to the gym often. but I just cannot seem to lose it. I am really not happy being how I am, but I know with some discipline I can do it. I will keep you all up to date o a weekly basis, and we will see what happens. I need all of your support.
Are you a Part of the Mile High Club?
Moved From Myspace. Original Date 6/4/07
Hey Everyone,
Di you all miss me. i have been gone for a while now. I will tell ya all about my trips. But before I begin, I just have to say who the hell could be a part of the mile high club. I was thinking about this when I had to use the restrooms on one of the planes. The restroom is smaller than one of the seats and even if you could squeeze 2 people in the restroom, when you both came out there would probably be a line and there would be too many questions. Also what is up with first class. They say you can upgrade your tickets to 1st class for an extra $60 but the onnly thing they get a a 1 inch bigger seat and they get off the plane first. The alcohol isn't even free! I just don't get it!
Anyway I went to Atl last week to go visit some friends. I had a great time, although they didn't play anything except for that crunk music. I said if I ever move down there, I will blast Nas all day long, just to piss people off. I stayed with my friend Tasha, and saw my friend Sam. I really miss him so much. We went to Atlantic station and hung out the last day I was there. I really do regret how Sam and I ended. I can say that letting him go was one of the biggest mistakes of my life. Tash and I also went to the aquarium, which was ok. It definitely was not worth the $25 we paid for it though.
I also went to Texas this past weekend. Let me tell you, our weather is NOTHING compared to them. I was sweating bullets as soon as I stepped off the plane. It was hot. The air conditioner in the car could not come on quick enough. We drove around and got lost twice, but finally found the hotel. We stayed at the Hilton in Clear Lake. The lake was not clear, but it sure was a beautiful place to be. There were sailboats all over with there mast up, and right across the street was NASA. I think it was there command center, but it was still nice. "Houston we have a problem". So we got lost on the way to George Bush Airport and checked in 1/2 hour before the flight took off. The funniest thing is the flight was delayed because of our baggage. I was complaining about how late we were taking off and then I see a car pull up and they are loading on our baggage. OOPS!
I think I have almost got over my fear of flyinf. Maybe some of it, butI still don't get how that hunk of metal stays in the air without falling out of the sky. I watch too much TV and see too many plane crashes on Discovery. I guess I have started to trust the pilots because their lives are at stake too.
Hey Everyone,
Di you all miss me. i have been gone for a while now. I will tell ya all about my trips. But before I begin, I just have to say who the hell could be a part of the mile high club. I was thinking about this when I had to use the restrooms on one of the planes. The restroom is smaller than one of the seats and even if you could squeeze 2 people in the restroom, when you both came out there would probably be a line and there would be too many questions. Also what is up with first class. They say you can upgrade your tickets to 1st class for an extra $60 but the onnly thing they get a a 1 inch bigger seat and they get off the plane first. The alcohol isn't even free! I just don't get it!
Anyway I went to Atl last week to go visit some friends. I had a great time, although they didn't play anything except for that crunk music. I said if I ever move down there, I will blast Nas all day long, just to piss people off. I stayed with my friend Tasha, and saw my friend Sam. I really miss him so much. We went to Atlantic station and hung out the last day I was there. I really do regret how Sam and I ended. I can say that letting him go was one of the biggest mistakes of my life. Tash and I also went to the aquarium, which was ok. It definitely was not worth the $25 we paid for it though.
I also went to Texas this past weekend. Let me tell you, our weather is NOTHING compared to them. I was sweating bullets as soon as I stepped off the plane. It was hot. The air conditioner in the car could not come on quick enough. We drove around and got lost twice, but finally found the hotel. We stayed at the Hilton in Clear Lake. The lake was not clear, but it sure was a beautiful place to be. There were sailboats all over with there mast up, and right across the street was NASA. I think it was there command center, but it was still nice. "Houston we have a problem". So we got lost on the way to George Bush Airport and checked in 1/2 hour before the flight took off. The funniest thing is the flight was delayed because of our baggage. I was complaining about how late we were taking off and then I see a car pull up and they are loading on our baggage. OOPS!
I think I have almost got over my fear of flyinf. Maybe some of it, butI still don't get how that hunk of metal stays in the air without falling out of the sky. I watch too much TV and see too many plane crashes on Discovery. I guess I have started to trust the pilots because their lives are at stake too.
Nothing Heals a Broken Heart Like
Moved From Myspace. Original Date 5/25/07
Okay so I am blogging again. I have quite a few people on my friends list having a hard time right now with their relationships, so I have some advice for you. I am not being mean in this blog, just real!!!!
1. You real friends are the ones that listen to you. Those are the ones you can call at any time and just vent. It may be venting or crying about the same thing every time you talk, but they still won't push you away.
2. If this man can break your heart so easily and carelessly, then was it really worth it to begin with, because he probably had feelings for you, but never really loved you like you loved him.
3. Picture your life 6 months down the road, and think to yourself "Am I still going to be crying" The answer is probably not. You will have moved on and realize how crazy you were.
4. If someone can make you feel as low as you do now, is this really the person you want to spend the rest of your life with?
5. The purpose of dating is to find the person you will spend the rest of your life with. Once you or him realizes that this isn't it, it is so much better to get out sooner than later.
6. Go Shopping
7. Put all of the energy you are using mourning the relationship into something else. It is nice outside, go start a garden, go for a walk or run. Just find something to do that is productive and will keep you going.
8. Don't do things like call him, and still do whatever he wants at the drop of a hat, because you think he will start to like you again. It is not going to happen. You should, as a matter of fact, distance yourself as far away as possible.
9. Don't be friends until you realy know that you are ready for it. That does not mean a month after you broke up, because you will just fall again.
10. Don't go to places that are memorable to the relationship.
11. Take him or her off your myspace, and don't braodcast it to the world in some attempt hoping that he will see it and realize how affected you are. They really do not care, and you are just showing your weakness.
12. My last word of advice is NOTHING HEALS A BROKEN HEART LIKE A NEW MAN. Get out there meet new people. you will begin to wonder why the hell you even wasted your time....
Coming from a woman who has recently been there!
Okay so I am blogging again. I have quite a few people on my friends list having a hard time right now with their relationships, so I have some advice for you. I am not being mean in this blog, just real!!!!
1. You real friends are the ones that listen to you. Those are the ones you can call at any time and just vent. It may be venting or crying about the same thing every time you talk, but they still won't push you away.
2. If this man can break your heart so easily and carelessly, then was it really worth it to begin with, because he probably had feelings for you, but never really loved you like you loved him.
3. Picture your life 6 months down the road, and think to yourself "Am I still going to be crying" The answer is probably not. You will have moved on and realize how crazy you were.
4. If someone can make you feel as low as you do now, is this really the person you want to spend the rest of your life with?
5. The purpose of dating is to find the person you will spend the rest of your life with. Once you or him realizes that this isn't it, it is so much better to get out sooner than later.
6. Go Shopping
7. Put all of the energy you are using mourning the relationship into something else. It is nice outside, go start a garden, go for a walk or run. Just find something to do that is productive and will keep you going.
8. Don't do things like call him, and still do whatever he wants at the drop of a hat, because you think he will start to like you again. It is not going to happen. You should, as a matter of fact, distance yourself as far away as possible.
9. Don't be friends until you realy know that you are ready for it. That does not mean a month after you broke up, because you will just fall again.
10. Don't go to places that are memorable to the relationship.
11. Take him or her off your myspace, and don't braodcast it to the world in some attempt hoping that he will see it and realize how affected you are. They really do not care, and you are just showing your weakness.
12. My last word of advice is NOTHING HEALS A BROKEN HEART LIKE A NEW MAN. Get out there meet new people. you will begin to wonder why the hell you even wasted your time....
Coming from a woman who has recently been there!
Last Weekend
Moved from Myspace. Original Date 5/24/07
So here I am blogging again. I went out last weekend with my ex. We actually had a great time. We drove the back way up to Lake George and went to a great restaurant called the Log Cabin. Or something like that. We went to a few shops, bought a few things and headed home. Everything was going great until he had to leave to go do something for the family. I was pissed, but not so much. Any other time I would have been ranting and raving about how he just leaves at the drop of the hat, but I surely was not phased this time. He eventually came back and we went to a club in downtown Albany. It was fun and I got a bit tipsy. I haven't drank in a while, so a bacardi Limion shot, corona and then bacardi with sprite, and I was done. The rest was history. Let's just say it has been a while, and it was great.
I guess I was a bit happy because I was able to separate my emotional and physical feelings with him this time around. PLUS I met someone new. He is a sweetheart but you know, everyone is always sweet in the beginning then BANG it all hits ya. I met one guy through eharmony and Oh MY GOSH, he was so nice. He came up to visit and then I knew what the real problem was. MY GODhis teeth were gross. It looks like Mike Tyson had punched him in the mouth about 20 times. The worst part is that he would not stop smiling. Now I know many of you guys may think I am being superficial, but DAYUM there are some thiings that people just won't settle for. If you don't like bigger women, then you wouldn't like me. I am that way with teeth. Mine are very clean and straight (no braces), and his teeth I just couldn't deal with! So I just stopped calling, and he would send me nasty messages and then apologize. After a while I learned that not only were his teeth jacked up but so was his head.
Another pice of interesting news... I go onto a site every once in a while called www.dontdatehimgirl.com . That site is freaking hilarious and can actually become very addicting. NEWAYS, someone I used to mess with was on there. I was in complete shock. It always takes a while to see the true side of someone and I guess I just didn't stick around long enough to see that side.
And one last question.. Does everyone on here get emails from either porn stars or nigerian scammers? It is ridiculous. They got the fly looking pic, but the profile and messages are always the same. I called someone out on it one time. My ex is Nigerian and told me one day I should go through with it to see how quick they start to ask for money. So I added this guy to my msngr, and we started talking. He was saying how he was in Nigeria with his mom who is very sick. yadda yadda yadda. After about 5 min. he was asking for money. I could not believe it. These people are low, trying to scam all of these women. Don't fall for it.!!!!!! If you really want a man, he ain't gonna be across the world!
Have a great day and I will talk to you when I get back from ATL!
So here I am blogging again. I went out last weekend with my ex. We actually had a great time. We drove the back way up to Lake George and went to a great restaurant called the Log Cabin. Or something like that. We went to a few shops, bought a few things and headed home. Everything was going great until he had to leave to go do something for the family. I was pissed, but not so much. Any other time I would have been ranting and raving about how he just leaves at the drop of the hat, but I surely was not phased this time. He eventually came back and we went to a club in downtown Albany. It was fun and I got a bit tipsy. I haven't drank in a while, so a bacardi Limion shot, corona and then bacardi with sprite, and I was done. The rest was history. Let's just say it has been a while, and it was great.
I guess I was a bit happy because I was able to separate my emotional and physical feelings with him this time around. PLUS I met someone new. He is a sweetheart but you know, everyone is always sweet in the beginning then BANG it all hits ya. I met one guy through eharmony and Oh MY GOSH, he was so nice. He came up to visit and then I knew what the real problem was. MY GODhis teeth were gross. It looks like Mike Tyson had punched him in the mouth about 20 times. The worst part is that he would not stop smiling. Now I know many of you guys may think I am being superficial, but DAYUM there are some thiings that people just won't settle for. If you don't like bigger women, then you wouldn't like me. I am that way with teeth. Mine are very clean and straight (no braces), and his teeth I just couldn't deal with! So I just stopped calling, and he would send me nasty messages and then apologize. After a while I learned that not only were his teeth jacked up but so was his head.
Another pice of interesting news... I go onto a site every once in a while called www.dontdatehimgirl.com . That site is freaking hilarious and can actually become very addicting. NEWAYS, someone I used to mess with was on there. I was in complete shock. It always takes a while to see the true side of someone and I guess I just didn't stick around long enough to see that side.
And one last question.. Does everyone on here get emails from either porn stars or nigerian scammers? It is ridiculous. They got the fly looking pic, but the profile and messages are always the same. I called someone out on it one time. My ex is Nigerian and told me one day I should go through with it to see how quick they start to ask for money. So I added this guy to my msngr, and we started talking. He was saying how he was in Nigeria with his mom who is very sick. yadda yadda yadda. After about 5 min. he was asking for money. I could not believe it. These people are low, trying to scam all of these women. Don't fall for it.!!!!!! If you really want a man, he ain't gonna be across the world!
Have a great day and I will talk to you when I get back from ATL!
Oatman Family
Moved From Myspace. Original Date 5/21/07
I am disgusted by the news in our local paper today. I am including a link so you can read about what I am talking about. For you Extremem Home Makeover Fans, you will want to read this. I have responded to the timesunion.com blog comments and here is my response to what readers have said. I can say I am thoroughly disgusted with people here in the capital region
http://timesunion.com/specialreports/makeover/
"I cannot believe the nonsense everyone has said about this woman. I do not know Debbie or her boys or anyone who associates with them, but KUDOS to her for taking in those boys when she did. Had she not, they probably would have been dead. And to reiterate what alot of people have said on here already, Those who have not sinned should cast the first stone. I am sure that no one could cast that stone.
This woman took in these boys when AIDS was the most feared disease ever. I picture her life has been like Ryan White. Remember that movie, and how he was treated. I know that if I had to live that life, I would have tough skin too. I would not care what people have to say about me and live my life. I think the point was well made that this is for the kids.
If anyone of of you think that there are other people in need, please go out and help them. Create your volunteer organization, or join Habitat for Humanity or any of the other hundreds of organizations we have in the capital district to help those in need. I am sure that her neighbors did not have a hard time rejecting the check they received from the show. Did any of you possibly DONATE that money to any charitable organizations. Forget it I already know what the response is… "That was payment for the pain and suffering I had staying in hotel for five days, I was misplaced from my home" Ridiculous, all of you are.
Why don't any of you go adopt a child, not even a child with HIV, just adopt a child, not even a minority child, just a child. Oh and then raise those children on a $50,000 salary. I have 2 boys of my own 14 and 7 and I can tell you my 14 year old alone eats me out of house and home, I could not imagine having 4 that are like that. If it is money making scheme, then let me say that Debbie is not smart, because there are definitely many other ways she could have schemed the government.
Debbie, I want to say congratulations to you on your new house. I am sure you are loving it, and I am to admit that I am jealous. I would love to have a house built for me as beautiful as yours. Don't let your neighbors discourage you. Hold your head up high girl! You deserve everything you get! And remember that saying what goes around comes around 3 times more. You have given and now you have received 3 times more."
I am disgusted by the news in our local paper today. I am including a link so you can read about what I am talking about. For you Extremem Home Makeover Fans, you will want to read this. I have responded to the timesunion.com blog comments and here is my response to what readers have said. I can say I am thoroughly disgusted with people here in the capital region
http://timesunion.com/specialreports/makeover/
"I cannot believe the nonsense everyone has said about this woman. I do not know Debbie or her boys or anyone who associates with them, but KUDOS to her for taking in those boys when she did. Had she not, they probably would have been dead. And to reiterate what alot of people have said on here already, Those who have not sinned should cast the first stone. I am sure that no one could cast that stone.
This woman took in these boys when AIDS was the most feared disease ever. I picture her life has been like Ryan White. Remember that movie, and how he was treated. I know that if I had to live that life, I would have tough skin too. I would not care what people have to say about me and live my life. I think the point was well made that this is for the kids.
If anyone of of you think that there are other people in need, please go out and help them. Create your volunteer organization, or join Habitat for Humanity or any of the other hundreds of organizations we have in the capital district to help those in need. I am sure that her neighbors did not have a hard time rejecting the check they received from the show. Did any of you possibly DONATE that money to any charitable organizations. Forget it I already know what the response is… "That was payment for the pain and suffering I had staying in hotel for five days, I was misplaced from my home" Ridiculous, all of you are.
Why don't any of you go adopt a child, not even a child with HIV, just adopt a child, not even a minority child, just a child. Oh and then raise those children on a $50,000 salary. I have 2 boys of my own 14 and 7 and I can tell you my 14 year old alone eats me out of house and home, I could not imagine having 4 that are like that. If it is money making scheme, then let me say that Debbie is not smart, because there are definitely many other ways she could have schemed the government.
Debbie, I want to say congratulations to you on your new house. I am sure you are loving it, and I am to admit that I am jealous. I would love to have a house built for me as beautiful as yours. Don't let your neighbors discourage you. Hold your head up high girl! You deserve everything you get! And remember that saying what goes around comes around 3 times more. You have given and now you have received 3 times more."
Trips
Moved from Myspace. Original date 5/17/07
Hey Everyone,
So next weekend I am going to Atlanta to see my good friend Tasha, and to visit my friend Sam. I miss them so much and can't wait to see them. Although I have to drive to Newburgh to catch the plane to go down there. And I hate flying, and will be flying by myself. AARRGGHH.
After that I am heading to Pasadena , TX with work. God I love the travel part of my job. In April I went to Minnesota and went to the Mall of America. GOD they had a rollercoaster in the mall. I will put up pictures of me in the mall later. I had so much fun. The town we went to at first, there were no Black people, but then once we got to Minneapolis, it was on. The thing I really couldn't belive was that the prom was going on in the mall. I have pictures of that too!
I will tell you all about my trips when I get back. Oh and I am going to Mohegan Sun this weekend with my ex. I know it sounds crazy, but I think it will be good to get away as friends. He is afterall still my best friend, and I am not sure what I would do without him!
Hey Everyone,
So next weekend I am going to Atlanta to see my good friend Tasha, and to visit my friend Sam. I miss them so much and can't wait to see them. Although I have to drive to Newburgh to catch the plane to go down there. And I hate flying, and will be flying by myself. AARRGGHH.
After that I am heading to Pasadena , TX with work. God I love the travel part of my job. In April I went to Minnesota and went to the Mall of America. GOD they had a rollercoaster in the mall. I will put up pictures of me in the mall later. I had so much fun. The town we went to at first, there were no Black people, but then once we got to Minneapolis, it was on. The thing I really couldn't belive was that the prom was going on in the mall. I have pictures of that too!
I will tell you all about my trips when I get back. Oh and I am going to Mohegan Sun this weekend with my ex. I know it sounds crazy, but I think it will be good to get away as friends. He is afterall still my best friend, and I am not sure what I would do without him!
Have You Seen The Greatest Show on Earth?
Moved from Myspace. Original Date 5/9/07
Hey everyone! I am obsessed with HEROES. That is what Dwight just said because I am now blogging about it. It really is the best showEVER. The crazy thig is I work for GE which owns NBC and I am trying to find out who I need to contact to get on the show, or at least meet a HERO. I would LOVE to meet Peter, not Milo but PETER. So I am wondering what would my power be if I was a HERO?
Anyway for those of you that haven't see the show it is about ordinary ppl finding extraordinary powers, and it is the only reason I look forward to Mondays. The thing that sucks is that I have something to do this Monday and will miss the second to last episode. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?? What else but DVR it. We all should have powers. I am not sure what our powers would be but here goes my own HEROES (For those of you that know my family, this is some funny stuff)
HOPE - I am like Peter in the fact that I have multiple powers.
1. Supersonic Snore, even when awake
2. Ability to retain boundless amount of useless information
3. Ability to make human eardrum bleed by nagging
Nathanael - He also has multiple powers, but he is like Sylar
1. He eats everythig in sight, probably the brains too!
2. Ability to fit ito all of my clothes even though he is smaller and taller than me
3. Ability to melt teenage white girls hearts with the flicker of his pearly braces
4. Instantly can fall into COMA after eating
5. Toenail of DEATH (I will have a pic up soon)
Emmanuel
1. Super Booty cheek kung foo grip
2. Consume enormous amounts of liquid
3. Ability to cause human beings to go into convulsions while he dances ad sings to High School Musical
Dwight
1. Ability to hear words before they are spoken (His ears are huge)
2. Attracts the biggest women on MYSPACE
3. Lead hands which can put a child into its place immediately
My Mom
1. Super Super Super Sonic Snore
2. Ability to raise a Army of ADD grandkids
My DAD
1. Ability to talk faster than the speed of sound
2. Ability to tear down buildings with his bear hands and haul it away to the scrap yard for some cash
Nichole
1. Ability to knock someone upside there head even when she is pregnant
2. Ability to mass produce children. It takes a village to raise achild, she has created her own village!
Kristin
1. Ability to assimilate into any social culture she is around
Seriosly though, for those of you that haven't checked out HEROES, it is o Mondays at 9pm on NBC EST. If you haven't saw one episode yet, you should probably wait for the Season DVD.
HATA
Hey everyone! I am obsessed with HEROES. That is what Dwight just said because I am now blogging about it. It really is the best showEVER. The crazy thig is I work for GE which owns NBC and I am trying to find out who I need to contact to get on the show, or at least meet a HERO. I would LOVE to meet Peter, not Milo but PETER. So I am wondering what would my power be if I was a HERO?
Anyway for those of you that haven't see the show it is about ordinary ppl finding extraordinary powers, and it is the only reason I look forward to Mondays. The thing that sucks is that I have something to do this Monday and will miss the second to last episode. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?? What else but DVR it. We all should have powers. I am not sure what our powers would be but here goes my own HEROES (For those of you that know my family, this is some funny stuff)
HOPE - I am like Peter in the fact that I have multiple powers.
1. Supersonic Snore, even when awake
2. Ability to retain boundless amount of useless information
3. Ability to make human eardrum bleed by nagging
Nathanael - He also has multiple powers, but he is like Sylar
1. He eats everythig in sight, probably the brains too!
2. Ability to fit ito all of my clothes even though he is smaller and taller than me
3. Ability to melt teenage white girls hearts with the flicker of his pearly braces
4. Instantly can fall into COMA after eating
5. Toenail of DEATH (I will have a pic up soon)
Emmanuel
1. Super Booty cheek kung foo grip
2. Consume enormous amounts of liquid
3. Ability to cause human beings to go into convulsions while he dances ad sings to High School Musical
Dwight
1. Ability to hear words before they are spoken (His ears are huge)
2. Attracts the biggest women on MYSPACE
3. Lead hands which can put a child into its place immediately
My Mom
1. Super Super Super Sonic Snore
2. Ability to raise a Army of ADD grandkids
My DAD
1. Ability to talk faster than the speed of sound
2. Ability to tear down buildings with his bear hands and haul it away to the scrap yard for some cash
Nichole
1. Ability to knock someone upside there head even when she is pregnant
2. Ability to mass produce children. It takes a village to raise achild, she has created her own village!
Kristin
1. Ability to assimilate into any social culture she is around
Seriosly though, for those of you that haven't checked out HEROES, it is o Mondays at 9pm on NBC EST. If you haven't saw one episode yet, you should probably wait for the Season DVD.
HATA
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