Birthday

Moved From Myspace. Original Date 4/2/07

So it is my birthday and what a day it will be. Hopefully not a bad one. The week started off so so. The man that was in my life is now gone completely. I have been trying to cut ties for a long time, but the thing that made it final was that he decided to move back home to be with his kids. In told him we could be friends but that was it. I waqsn't going to play his games anymore. I am 30 years old. There are so many things out there that I still want to do, and I won't let a man who doesn't know what he wants stopping me.

I think the thing that is the most disappointing is looking back on my life and seeing so many things I could have accomplished, but either gave up or threw the opportunity away. I sure do wish I could do it all over again. But you know life moves on and I think that because I am turning thirty I have realized I need to get my behind moving. I want to get my MBA, and maybe once the kids are gone I will go to law school. I just have so much in life I want to achieve.
I was actually very privileged to be asked to be on the Board of Directors for a not for profit org here in Troy, I am really excited. At least that makes me feel like I am moving up in the world. I also went for an interview to a company that is much closer to my house and I will be doing what I really want to do... HR. Please pray for me...if it is God's will I will get it. Although a HR position just opened up at my job that I am thinking about applying for. One way or another I will be doing what I want by the end of the year.. Hopefully without a pay cut.
So as far as my goals for my 30th year.

1. I am trying to lose 100 lbs. Please for anyone who has suggestions or wants to go to the YMCA with me. Let me know. I will tell you that the hardest thing is finding the time to do so. I know I am a healthy fat girl, I just don't want to settle for that. I want to be a healthy skinny girl.

2. I really want to try to build a more trusting relationship with my son. He is wonderful and capable of so much. I just know if he would trust and listen to me he can be that much better,

3. I want to try to forgive and allow my family to forgiuve me for the things we have done/said to each other. I have always felt like the black sheep of the family and don't want to feel like I am not wanted anymore/

4. I want to get to know my baby sister a bit more. We met uup after years of not knowing each other, and I really want to be that older sis she looks up to. I don't want her to feel that the only family she has is the one who raised her. I am here for you to.

5. I want to get a job in HR. Although the job I am in is close, it is not quite what I want.

6. I wat to get over this emotionally draining relationship. It has been hard, but day by day it becomes better.

7. I want to travel overseas. I have a passport and have never been out of the country except Jamaica.... I really want to go to Europe or even Japan!

8. I want to get rid of half the junk in my house. Lord know how many useless things I have in my house that I don't need.

9. I want my Yaris! I have a pic of it in my cube and I am determined to get one this year.

10. I want to go do something adventurous that I have never done before. Something no one will ever believe that I would do like bungee jump, or mountain climbing.......any suggestions

Well that is it for now. I hope (no pun intended) to have a wonderful b day. Enjoy!