A Few things

i need to blog about today.

Stalker:
I dont even know where to begin with the updates about the stalker. I went to bed very early last night and received 6 phone calls from the stalker. I am kind of unsure as to what to do. I literally did not think people could really become so obsessed so quickly. The crazy thing is we went to high school together and I do not think he was like this before. I really just thought "Oh we could reconnect and whatever" but I guess that was not the case. I am truly contemplating changing my number so he cannot call any longer. problem is that I have had this number for about 5 years now and it really annoys me that one person would make me change my number like that. It is frustrating. From here on out no one gets my number. At All. I am taking a FN break from men period. If I need to quench my thirst, I will do so with good ole faithful. But not for a few months at least. I went celibate for a while once, and you know what I want to see if I can do it again. I dont even have any desires to be with someone at this point. Too much drama.

Supreme Court pick:
Well Obama has made his choice for Supremem Court. Apparently Twitter is buzzing over this pick. the first article I read this morning was the one on Fox News. Most articles were the same. It is the comments I enjoy reading on Fox News. People are so hmmmm Raw! Bet that we will be talking about this on tonights show. Yes I am doing one tonight, because yesterday was memorial day and we dont usually get a lot of viewers on Holidays. This will be a good one. Have so much to talk about. i am actually excited about Obama's pick. MSNBC is stating that she has the most experience of any appointee in the past 70 years. It is quite exciting to see how this unfolds.

Today;
I am making an action plan for myself. a Life action plan. i spoke with Tash who always brings clarity to the picture. i told her I wish that we could always just believe the things we say. OMG the stalker is now leaving depressing messages on my voicemail. Anyway...She really wants me to move down there, I keep telling her I can't.It is way to far from my family. We talked about life and where we thought we would be at this point in my life. i never thought I would still be playing catch up...that is for sure. But all in all i have done pretty well for myself, and that is something to be proud of. So I am going to start setting goals for myself. Sometimes i wish I would have just went to law school instead of doing my MBA. I am however going to start looking for part time law schools and see what i can work with. Man man asked about D yesterday and i am trying to figure out a way to tell him that he will not see him any longer. i have learned that now that NO ONE will ever meet my kids again until I am absolutely sure that it is time. All day it was all he talked about about and I just did not have the heart to say anything. Steve kept giving me this look like "Told you so"

Mentioning Steve:
I think he is really going to marry this girl. I mean I am glad he has found happiness, but I dont want him to do it for the wrong reasons. I mean marriage is HUGE, but maybe not as much so in his book, but dammit i just dont understand how he can really narry someone so she can stay in the country. i had an offer like that one time and flatly refused. And mostly because i will get married once and that is it. No turning back. But the more I think about it the more I think i may not even want to get married. After this whole thing has happened, i realized that no matter how much you love someone, you cannot make them love you back, and even marriages dont last. As much as we would like them to, they just dont. The other thing is that based on that decision i think I am going to go get my FN tubes tied. I thought that maybe I wouldnt because you never know who you might meet, but after what happened this month, it is just not worth the risk of having kids and then finding out that you might have been a single parent Again. I dont want to have that type of committment to someone.

Well i need to finish the research on this judge for my show. And get back to work. I am actually excited about it tonight because we have so much to talk about. Tash, thanks for the peptalk this weekend, you are always there for me. Told you i would give you a dang shout out!