Dating Websites

Lets talk about Dating websites. I recently deleted my dating acct on POF. I kind of just got tired of the same old nonsense. People writing me telling me how they would love to meet me, I never respond and they think it is personal. I deleted it because I am just not ready. I get tired of people asking me "Why is a beautiful woman such as yourself still single? I don't like answering those questions. What do I tell them? I have issues? I actually haven't been in a monogamous relationship in forever? The people I have been with were committed to other people or just didn't want to be committed to me? What is wrong with me? I have two boys, one is 18 and the other is 11, that right there alone knocks out about half of the people i meet. Besides that, I just don't understand what is wrong with a good ole fashioned, if you want to talk to me, approach me and we can meet. Most of the people I spoke with previously, just wanted to bang me anyway, and they should know I am not really that great in bed anyway. I hate having to get used to someone sexually all over again. I am actually just starting to not want to do it anyway, it creates too many complications and emotions. How would my life be if I was celibate until I found my mate? I mean I did it a while ago, I could do it again. There is a new goal (yeah okay). I mean I like the intimacy of it, and I am not the type of person that can just do it with anyone.

But back to the topic. I just cannot seem to find anyone I am truly compatible with. They are too young, and as my friend put it, it is to much work to try to keep up with the young girls I would be competing with. And the ones that are too much into me are really just too much into me. They want to see me all the time, and I make up a bazilllion excuses as to why I cannot instead of just telling them "I'm really not interested"

I never thought, when I was younger, that I would still be just alone. I mean I thought I would be married, have a house, and kids (besides the 2 I have), financially sound, and just have my family and be happy. I think it is time for a top ten...

Top Ten Reasons Why I am Still Single
(this is not like the previous blog of Top Ten Reasons to stay single)

10. I have never lived with anyone
9. I have two kids who are old and no one wants to come in a "act" like a parent to children who are already groomed
8. I think I am right all of the time
7. I really just don't make the time to get out and meet people
6. Once I tell people I have had my surgery, they realize that everything underneath is a lot different than what they previously imagined, and they do not want to ruin that first image
5. Whenever I have told people how important my family is and that there opinion means the world to me, they back off. I mean I was raised by these people, if you like me, you should like them.
4. I concentrated too much on my career to worry about the importance of becoming a future wife to someone.
3. I dated two men who were in relationships and to others on the outside, it seems as though i am afraid of commitment. (Those relationships are detailed in my previous blogs and boy is it crazy to read how I was feeling then)
2. I am sometimey. Sometimes I look really good and other times I look really bad. People want consistency and some days I just don't have the time to be consistence.
1. I want it to bad. But when I say, I will just let it happen, I always fall for the wrong person.

I just hope that it doesn't happen too late. I feel like this is the only void in my life right now. Someone who is as proud to walk down the street with me as I am them!